Realization

[eredien]

Oh my God it's been a decade since I started college.

I could have lived without realizing that this week.
Even though I had no career I was usually able to say, "well at least I have figured out friendship and love a lot better in the last few years, and am working on building a career for myself and making myself mentally healthy." But now I can't even say that.

So freaking depressing

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[thoughtsdriftby.livejournal.com]

Knowing none who actually ended up where they thought they would be over 10 years. Three high-school friends seem to have given up because they were not successful enough, two tossing career/spouse/friends/family and now angry at the world.

Accessing your life is always disappointing to all those with any drive and imagination. Decisions that might have been a leap forward if only taken, others taken that wasted years. Learning to be satisfied in attempts to make the best decision at the time with what is known and then the next, that it is a bit like stumbling around. You try to take a good forward step each time, but it is only years later you can look back at how you did.

From here I've watch some pretty bold steps and a couple pure leaps of faith. Thinking you are now further along than most, but yes, not where you want to be. So, you have taken another step in a generally forward direction with a confidence and mental viewpoint you didn't have ten years ago. The then you likely could not have.

Now, if you ever get love and friendship figured out... let me know, I am experienced but still in need of help in that area.

[kaypendragon.livejournal.com]

Irritatingly, I am where my Mom thought I would be. (Although, not where I thought.) Happily, she does not say "I told you so."

[thoughtsdriftby.livejournal.com]

curious of the context, where are you and why is that iritating?

[kaypendragon.livejournal.com]

It's mostly irritating that she knew.

I'm working at a public library, just like Mom. Which I do, in fact, love doing. I just didn't expect to love it when Mom told me I would.

[thoughtsdriftby.livejournal.com]

Seeming a small irritation, just you didn't know at the time.
You decided to give it a try and it worked out, that is a win.
Many hold themselves back from even trying, deciding the result without ever knowing.

My sibling is very into libraries as her profession, her lifetime career.

Me, I have a profession (engineering) and work/income, but it more to pay for things. I save up to do a small part of what I really want to do, those activities generally do not provide a living income on their own. So, I'm not where I thought/dreamed I would be or even with who I thought I would be with. Still, I'm not giving up.