Realization

[eredien]

Oh my God it's been a decade since I started college.

I could have lived without realizing that this week.
Even though I had no career I was usually able to say, "well at least I have figured out friendship and love a lot better in the last few years, and am working on building a career for myself and making myself mentally healthy." But now I can't even say that.

So freaking depressing

Comments

[thoughtsdriftby.livejournal.com]

curious of the context, where are you and why is that iritating?

[kaypendragon.livejournal.com]

It's mostly irritating that she knew.

I'm working at a public library, just like Mom. Which I do, in fact, love doing. I just didn't expect to love it when Mom told me I would.

[thoughtsdriftby.livejournal.com]

Seeming a small irritation, just you didn't know at the time.
You decided to give it a try and it worked out, that is a win.
Many hold themselves back from even trying, deciding the result without ever knowing.

My sibling is very into libraries as her profession, her lifetime career.

Me, I have a profession (engineering) and work/income, but it more to pay for things. I save up to do a small part of what I really want to do, those activities generally do not provide a living income on their own. So, I'm not where I thought/dreamed I would be or even with who I thought I would be with. Still, I'm not giving up.