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Therapy & Mental Health: yesterday, my therapist and I both agreed that I am pretty much done with therapy for right now. I feel happier and way more confident in my life and have mechanisms in place to deal with the bad stuff. It doesn't seem like I was in therapy for more than three years, but it's a different kind of work than I was thinking it was when I went into it, so the time-dilation makes a little bit of sense to me. I am really proud. I still have problems (see below) but I can deal with them in a reasonable manner. I am still taking meds for PCOS and bipolar disorder, which seem to be working really, extraordinarily well.

Home life: my parents are transphobes, my mother explicitly told me that she wants me to settle down with a man or a 'real woman'. Going to have a talk about this with my mother. On other hand, mother does not have cancer again, so that's good.

Creativity: I have gone into my winter creativity phase, which mostly means writing poetry, reading long involved novels, drawing, and sewing (as opposed to my summer phase, which is writing longer works of fiction, reading short stories, gardening, and website design). I am really happy with where I am at in my sewing; it looks more professional every day. Also when I move back to the Boston area I am planning on trying to do my maskmaking/puppeteering internship again.

Fitness/body image: this is slowly progressing. I am going to a weekly meeting that is helping. I have decided that I would rather lose weight and see what that does to my breasts and shape than get top surgery; I don't think I want it anymore and I figure if I do later the procedure will still be there.

Work: I got promoted from intern to part-timer, which means more responsibility and not being paid under the table. Yay for daily structure.

Relationships & Friendships: Long distance relationships with my friends and partners still suck, but I have kind of gotten used to it. I try to see people when I can, which also involves being able to say 'I can't see this person right now' when I can't. My life is much better for the way I now manage relationships that are important to me instead of letting my relationships manage my moods. I had a fantastic minivacation where I got to see A., B., and E. this past weekend and managed to break through some of my remaining psychosexual fears in a big way, which was incredibly rewarding. Things with R and R' are slowly, slowly coming back to a level of friendship I haven't felt from them in years, which is also fantastic. The support of I. through all this has been steadfast not to mention hilarious. I feel really amazed and grateful to have such incredible people in my life.

Food: the biggest change in my life this year has been my deciding two things: I can be veg* at home if I'm not vocal about it--no one will miss me eating cheese or meat if I don't make a big deal out of it--and that I want to start fishing. I went fishing this summer and really found it incredibly relaxing, though I caught close to nothing. I've decided that I will eat what I catch if I can, which is consistent with my overall food philosophy of taking personal responsibility for the things I eat and trying to grow or kill as much of it myself as possible. Next possible food project: keeping rescue chickens?

Moving plans: progressing apace with my bank account (did I mention I'm grateful for my job)? I may move to Boston and commute to Western MA to see B., I may move to Western MA with B. and commute to the semi-Boston area to see A. Still looking for Boston jobs, especially in editing or writing. Really where I live depends on what kind of job I get and what my plans with B. solidify into. We are thinking of getting some kind of cohousing--a shared duplex, or possibly nearby apartments.

Travel: Belgium in 2015 with A. I also actually have a price on my dream trip to Russia/Mongolia/China/Japan and am saving up for that.

Religion/God: I am impressed with the new pope even though I currently consider myself agnostic. I went to Jewish services for the first time last week and really enjoyed all the singing and debate of theology even though I don't believe in the efficacy of prayer as such. Chi work both with and without my partners is going well. Saving up for martial arts again even though my mother considers them unwomanly (another thing to talk with her about).
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Therapy & Mental Health: yesterday, my therapist and I both agreed that I am pretty much done with therapy for right now. I feel happier and way more confident in my life and have mechanisms in place to deal with the bad stuff. It doesn't seem like I was in therapy for more than three years, but it's a different kind of work than I was thinking it was when I went into it, so the time-dilation makes a little bit of sense to me. I am really proud. I still have problems (see below) but I can deal with them in a reasonable manner. I am still taking meds for PCOS and bipolar disorder, which seem to be working really, extraordinarily well.

Home life: my parents are transphobes, my mother explicitly told me that she wants me to settle down with a man or a 'real woman'. Going to have a talk about this with my mother. On other hand, mother does not have cancer again, so that's good.

Creativity: I have gone into my winter creativity phase, which mostly means writing poetry, reading long involved novels, drawing, and sewing (as opposed to my summer phase, which is writing longer works of fiction, reading short stories, gardening, and website design). I am really happy with where I am at in my sewing; it looks more professional every day. Also when I move back to the Boston area I am planning on trying to do my maskmaking/puppeteering internship again.

Fitness/body image: this is slowly progressing. I am going to a weekly meeting that is helping. I have decided that I would rather lose weight and see what that does to my breasts and shape than get top surgery; I don't think I want it anymore and I figure if I do later the procedure will still be there.

Work: I got promoted from intern to part-timer, which means more responsibility and not being paid under the table. Yay for daily structure.

Relationships & Friendships: Long distance relationships with my friends and partners still suck, but I have kind of gotten used to it. I try to see people when I can, which also involves being able to say 'I can't see this person right now' when I can't. My life is much better for the way I now manage relationships that are important to me instead of letting my relationships manage my moods. I had a fantastic minivacation where I got to see A., B., and E. this past weekend and managed to break through some of my remaining psychosexual fears in a big way, which was incredibly rewarding. Things with R and R' are slowly, slowly coming back to a level of friendship I haven't felt from them in years, which is also fantastic. The support of I. through all this has been steadfast not to mention hilarious. I feel really amazed and grateful to have such incredible people in my life.

Food: the biggest change in my life this year has been my deciding two things: I can be veg* at home if I'm not vocal about it--no one will miss me eating cheese or meat if I don't make a big deal out of it--and that I want to start fishing. I went fishing this summer and really found it incredibly relaxing, though I caught close to nothing. I've decided that I will eat what I catch if I can, which is consistent with my overall food philosophy of taking personal responsibility for the things I eat and trying to grow or kill as much of it myself as possible. Next possible food project: keeping rescue chickens?

Moving plans: progressing apace with my bank account (did I mention I'm grateful for my job)? I may move to Boston and commute to Western MA to see B., I may move to Western MA with B. and commute to the semi-Boston area to see A. Still looking for Boston jobs, especially in editing or writing. Really where I live depends on what kind of job I get and what my plans with B. solidify into. We are thinking of getting some kind of cohousing--a shared duplex, or possibly nearby apartments.

Travel: Belgium in 2015 with A. I also actually have a price on my dream trip to Russia/Mongolia/China/Japan and am saving up for that.

Religion/God: I am impressed with the new pope even though I currently consider myself agnostic. I went to Jewish services for the first time last week and really enjoyed all the singing and debate of theology even though I don't believe in the efficacy of prayer as such. Chi work both with and without my partners is going well. Saving up for martial arts again even though my mother considers them unwomanly (another thing to talk with her about).
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This is a fast and easy soup for the crockpot or rice cooker. Feel free to substitute ingredients as needed; great for getting rid of the half-tomatoes and partial bags of frozen corn most people have in their refrigerator. Great for fall when you start getting sinus colds. Very homey, and delicately spicy without being overwhelming. You could also add a little bit of meat substitute if you are so inclined, but I didn't have any on hand.

Ingredients:
1/2 12 oz. canned corn (frozen ok)
1 sm can tomato soup
1/2 small red onion, chopped
1-2 cloves garlic, minced
2 Tbsp olive oil (mine was deliciously flavored with garlic and chilies)
2 Tbsp vegan sour cream or cream cheese
2 medium half-ripe tomatoes, sliced
5 grape or cherry tomatoes, cut in half
1 Tbsp Old Bay Seasoning
1 Bay Leaf
1/2 small leftover rice (this was about a cup; I used half of a takeout container's worth of rice)
1 T sriracha sauce
1 T better than broth vegetable broth
2 c water
3 lime quarters
1/2 t cinnamon
Cilantro if desired
Salt and pepper to taste

Equipment:
Stick blender or regular blender
Pot, crockpot, or rice cooker

Stick everything except the cilantro into your cooking vessel of choice. Simmer or heat on low until roma tomatoes have dissolved; grape tomatoes should still be slightly intact. Blend.

Add chopped cilantro as garnish. Enjoy!

Serves: 6-8 people
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This is a great thing to do with the tomatoes that decide to bloom during a sunny october but never ripen. Not that I would know anything about that.

Finely dice 10-15 medium to small green tomatoes (I had Roma tomatoes)
Add to taste: diced onion, celery seed, mustard seed, salt, sugar, apple vinegar

Let sit overnight in nonreactive (glass or plastic) container in refrigerator.

This gets better the more you let it sit, and is fantastic on Mexican food.
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The next time I buy another giant zucchini for $1, I am making this. I am not going to toss it into miso soup, which was a bad idea. I like squash, but I keep preparing it badly, such that I never buy it, or buy it and get overenthusiastic about throwing it into random recipes, to "see what happens." Answer: sad vegan.

Creamy Squash Casserole
(from Pleasant Valley Farm in Hubbardsville, NY)

3 zucchini, or one giant zucchini for $1
3 yellow squash
10 3/4 oz can cream of "chicken" soup (really, I would just use soymilk & vegan better than broth)
2 3/4 c herb-flavored stuffing mix, divided
1 c soy sour cream
1/3 c soy margarine, softened
2 carrots, shredded
1/2 c onion, chopped (I personally think leeks would be better)

Combine squash w/small amt of water in a saucepan. Bring to a boil for 3 minutes. Drain and set aside.

In large bowl, combine soup, sour cream, margarine, carrots, and onions. Stir in 2 c stuffing mix.

Fold in squash; transfer to a greased 13x9 in baking pan. Sprinkle with remaining stuffing mix.

Bake uncovered at 350 deg. F for 25 min.

Makes 10-12 servings.

Can be divided into two 9-inch pans. Bake one, freeze the other.
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Sumac Lemonade
Vegan Sumac Lemonade

Ingredients:
5-10 heads of staghorn or other [non-poison] sumac
Lots of cold water
1-2 c sugar for taste

Equipment:
The biggest bowl you have in your kitchen
The second-biggest bowl in your kitchen
A strainer with small holes
Paper towel or cheesecloth

Take the second biggest bowl and fill with coldish but not frigid water. Tap water is fine.
Grab one of the sumac heads, and sort of twist it like you were wringing out a towel or washcloth. Some of the sumac berries will come off in the water; this is fine. The branches are kind of pointy once the berries are gone, so you may want to wear dish gloves or something to protect your skin.

Keep doing this until the water is a nice pink color--not baby pink, but 80's hot pants pink.

You will now have a bundle of soggy sumac that you can discard in anywhere but the disposal.
Now you have a big bowl of water with berries and little berry hairs and stuff floating in it.

Set the strainer over the biggest bowl and put paper towels or cheesecloth in the bottom. Pour the pink stuff slowly through the paper towel so all the junk gets caught and you are left with a delicious clear pink elixir of summer.

Add sugar if needed; stir; enjoy. Serve in little faceted cups with mint sprigs and cucumber sandwiches if you like, because it just looks like the kind of food that calls for fancy treatment. Or you can just guzzle it straight from the ice tea pitcher. It's delicious.

Yield: about 1/2 gallon approx.

Sumac Simple Syrup
Use this to flavor drinks (?), or pour over waffles, or ice cream, or I guess you could really boil it down to make some hard candy but that seemed to involve more heat so I wasn't really interested.

Make the sumac lemonade above, and before you add the sugar to the whole batch reserve about 2 cups of sumac liquid and add about 1 and 1/2 c of sugar (or stevia, or agave, or whatever sweetener you like). The deal here is to get the sumacwater-to-sugar ratio about 1:3, so that the syrup is not sickeningly sweet but has a syrupy texture, unlike the lemonade.

Boil this down, stirring occasionally, until syrup thickens and turns a slightly deeper pink than the lemonade. You can eat this immediately or you can bottle it--I let this cool for a while, and then when it was cool poured it into a clean glass salad-dressing bottle I rescued from the recycling bin. It looks practically professional, except perhaps for the masking-tape label.

Yield: Makes about 1 c simple syrup after you reserve for the recipe below; if you do not make the ice cream you get about 1 1/2 c syrup.


Vegan Sumac Ice Cream
Vegan Sumac Ice Cream

This recipe assumes you have a battery or electrical powered ice cream maker, and that you have prepared its container by freezing it or whatever else the instructions say to do for your model. Please substitute other nut or non-dairy milks to fit your diet.

1/2 can coconut milk (not coconut water; not cream of coconut)
about 2 c almond milk
1/2 c Reserved Sumac Simple Syrup
Pinch salt

Since you already added and concentrated the sugars in the syrup making process, you do not need to add any more sugar! I would also try this with soymilk but I really liked the subtle blending of the coconut, almonds, and almost lemon-like tones of sumac together. Plus, I had no soymilk.

Heat up the reserved syrup, stirring in the almond milk gently to combine. Add salt.

Just before the milk/syrup mix scalds, take it off the heat and immediately pour in coconut milk.

Cool to room temperature or below. I cheated by putting this near my AC unit but usually I put it in the refrigerator for an hour or two.

Put the cooled mixture in the ice cream maker, and put the ice cream maker in the freezer and start it up. In 24 hours you should have delicious sumac ice cream!

Serves: about 4 scoops; my ice cream maker is small (1 qt). If you have a bigger ice cream maker please scale up this recipe.

I think this would be fantastic with homemade Thai food. The spiciness and tartness of the food would segue really well to this creamy and slightly acidic dessert. This comes out a lovely pale pink/lilac color; very elegant!

Photos Will Follow - I am waiting for the ice cream to freeze so I can take a nice picture in a glass instead of just taking a picture of what looks like lavender soup.
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When I was very small, I would go behind my house and take the fuzzy red berries off of the trees and soak them in water and feed the tea to my dolls assorted animal figurines. Turns out I should have been drinking it myself, because:

a.) Most varieties of sumac found in the US are not poisonous, and the one that is looks really different from the other ones
b.) Man, it is tasty. It is my new taste of summer.
c.) Full of vitamin C!

I used this Steve Brill recipe with Staghorn Sumac, which grows wild at the edges of wooded fields and along parking lots and roadsides throughout the northeast--it's the one where the leaves turn a flaming orange-red for a week in the fall. There are also other varieties of edible sumac elsethere in the country. I really, really suggest this food. It is fresh, it is zingy, it is delicious without being overwhelming, it is a lovely pale pink color, and it is free.

Especially if you, like me, love acidic foods. Imagine a caper that is vaguely sweet instead of salty. That, my friends, is sumac.

Note: the sumacs that grow in the USA are not quite the same as the sumacs that people make a ground Indian spice out of, sadly, but honestly it's quite good by itself.

Here are some recipes for things you can make with Sumac!
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Ingredients:
1/2 block of firm or extra-firm tofu, crumbled
1 TBSP Sammy & Annie's Grandma's Pickled Green Tomatoes, Regular spiciness
1/2 fresh beefsteak tomato because your tomatoes are still too green, chopped
1 TBSP olive oil
4-5 medium fresh shiitake mushrooms, sliced
salt and pepper to taste
about 1 TBSP nutritional yeast
1 green onion, sliced in rounds

Unbelievably, I didn't use garlic in this recipe, although you surely could.

Heat the pan; add the oil at medium heat.

When the oil starts getting all viscous, but before it starts popping, dump in the tofu and green onion. Stir to coat evenly.

When the onion gets a little wilted, put in the salt and pepper and mushroom and tomato. Heat a little more until the tomato is just soft.

Add in the pickled green tomatoes; stir until the oils from the pickled tomato coat it all over. Sprinkle nutritional yeast. Stir and serve.

Serves 1-2 people.

This is incredibly easy and delicious.
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Preheat oven to 350 deg F. Get a regular-sized muffin tin. Line it with scraps of filo dough, brushing briefly with olive oil. Add either:

Mushrooms in Filo
- Wash 12 mushrooms, take out stems; put in whole to filo-lined muffin cups.
- Add fresh marjoram, pepper, and garlic salt. Rosemary optional.
- Put in 350 deg. F oven for 15-20 m or until done. Allow to cool on wire rack in tin so filo keeps its shape.
Makes 12 mushroom bites. Great for appetizers or just eating. A good way to use up the last few mushrooms in the bin.

Mushrooms in Filo

Moroccan-Influenced Sweet Potato rounds in Filo
- Get 12 frozen sweet potato rounds (you can find these at Aldi's or at Trader Joe's). Do not thaw. Place 1 round each in prepared filo-lined muffin tin.
- Add cumin, coriander, salt, and pepper to taste.
- Add a small amount of vegan margarine to each muffin cup.
- Put in 250 deg. oven for 15-20 minutes or until the most delicious smell ever fills the room. Allow to cool on wire rack in tin so filo keeps its shape.
Makes 12 sweet potato bites. You will immediately want to eat more so I suggest making a double batch of these. Best served warm. They are also excellent cold the next day and can be refrigerated in a tupperware for several days.

Vegan Moroccan-Influenced Sweet Potato Rounds in Filo, Plated

Vegan Moroccan-Influenced Sweet Potato Rounds in Filo

Edited: added photos!
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Today I am wearing my foxy socks, because last night I saw two fox kits tussling at the edge of my family's backyard; it seems they have denned under one of the storage buildings. Hopefully pictures to follow later if I am lucky and patient. Foxes!! BAAAABY Foxes!

In other news, my lettuce is sprouting already and my vegan oatmeal-raisin cookies are delicious.
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I made a new dressing! I think this would taste just as good if you left out the Tobasco sauce.

1 1/2 Tbsp Vegan mayonnaise
3-4 dashes Tobasco sauce
1 Tbsp red rice miso paste
1 heaping Tbsp raspberry-rhubarb jam
1/2 T balsamic vinegar

In bowl or mug, mix mayonnaise and Tobasco.
Add miso paste and stir thoroughly until miso is dissolved.
Add jam and stir unti dissolved.
Add balsamic vinegar to taste/consistency.

Enjoy!
Makes 2-3 T dressing

Look for two more recipes tomorrow!
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When it starts to be winter, I want to cook all my food in the oven. I also absolutely love food stuffed with other foods--stuffed apples, stuffed peppers, stuffed pears, things with stuffing inside. So, when I saw Trader Joe's had a new kind of vegan fake meat crumble in their "cold but not frozen fake meats next to the vegetables" section, *and* saw that the package featured stuffed peppers, I went for it and bought 2 packages, for $2.99 each.

Oh my gosh, what a great deal! Not only was there little packaging (just a bag and a recyclable cardboard surround, but there is a *lot* of fake meat inside this deceptive little package. This would work great as a replacement for just about anything where you would use ground beef (which so often starts out as and then gets cooked into unidentifiable mush anyway). I made three dishes--one a kind of Indian-spiced chili, another garlic-ground-beef substitute for movie night with [livejournal.com profile] ab3nd and my roommate E, and a third got added to my pre-existing pot of rice along with some spices for a delicious kind of casserole-thing. Both of these made immense amounts of food--the chili I shared with two friends, and it still lasted me for a week, for instance.

This would be perfect for tacos, stroganoff-type dishes, chili (obviously!), soup, meatballs, hamburgers, pizza, calzones, "stuffed" pizza, stuffed peppers...all of which I plan on making with the crumbles.

It's eat-and-eat, so it's easy to make.

How does it taste? A tiny bit crunchy after cooking, but I liked the texture and the very slight nutty flavor. Vegetarians liked it. Non-vegetarians also liked it. I hope TJ's keeps this stuff in stock forever.
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Yesterday night, [livejournal.com profile] thomasyan and his girlfriend K.Y. came over and we all cooked handmade soba noodles. They were delicious! They were the first hommade handmade noodles I have ever eaten. Thomas says you can special order the buckwheat noodle making flour from Miso Market in Cambridge.

I cooked a lot of food today, because between bike rides and school visits this week will probably be really busy.
1.) Seitan Cutlets, from the Veganomicon.
2.) Madeira Cake, from Shapter's fantastic book "Bread Machine." Unfortunately, I decided to cook it in the oven rather than in the bread machine, and it did not fully release from the pan. I wound up with a fluffy-topped loaf and a crusty and delicious bottom. However, this was not a loss, because I invented...
3.) Apple Mistake Cake. This is kind of like a tart, kind of like an upside-down cake, and kind of like Tarte Tatin. It's basically layers of thinly-sliced apples, brushed with lemon and vanilla extracts, covered with a dusting of arrowroot powder, covered with a layer of Madeira cake crumbles, then repeat until you run out of apples and Madeira cake. The arrowroot combines with the apple juices and the extracts to make a delicious cakey thing. This is currently freezing, and those who come to the Halloween party will be able to taste it.
4.) Honey Agave Syrup Cake, again from "Bread Machine." Unfortunately, for some reason, this didn't turn out that well, and made only a vaguely sweet vaguely whole-wheaty loaf. Totally edible for breakfast, though, with jam and soy margarine.
5.) Rice Cooker Hearty Chili. I realized that though I hate boiling dried beans, my rice cooker will do that for me, so I tossed some kidney beans and some navy beans in with water and broth concentrate and various spices, and then added tomatoes when the beans were done, and then added rice when the tomatoes were warm. I added in some cubed seitan, and now I have dinner for every night until next week.
6.) Spicy Peach Seitan Grilled Cheese. This is simple: Tortilla, add vegan pepperjack cheese. Fry in lightly oiled pan. Now when the cheese starts bubbling, add a few seaweed strips (or spinach, but I wanted seaweed), some hot peach jam, and some strips of seitan. Another tortilla goes on top. Flip. Eat. Yum.
7.) Whole Wheat Pizza Dough. Again from "Bread Machine."
8.) 4 Small Gourmet Pizzas: All with the whole wheat dough brushed lightly with oil, in various pie pans I had around the house.( I miss my pizza stone.)
- "Chicken" Florentine Pizza: Tomato sauce, nutritional yeast, cubed seitan, frozen chopped spinach, a little balsamic drizzle over the top. Mozzarella vegan cheese.
- Japanese Experiment Pizza: Tomato sauce, cubed seitan, pickled ginger, light drizzle Hoisin sauce, Mozzarella vegan cheese.
- Italian-American Thanksgiving Pizza: Tomato sauce, strips of seitan, nutritional yeast, thin slices of tofurky "smoked turkey" deli slices, dried cranberries, Mozzarella vegan cheese.
- I've Been Craving Mexican for Two Weeks Pizza: Tomato sauce, chunks of seitan, 1 scoop Rice Cooker Hearty Chili, Mozzarella vegan cheese, Pepperjack vegan cheese.

Is it absolutely horrible I still want to make oatmeal raisin cookies?

EDIT: I made the cookies.
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This is more a recipe than a review, but this was so delicious I wanted to write it down right away. I have been eating a lot of variations on "lentils and..." lately, and wanted to talk about some things that make that delicious instead of totally boring every day.

The first thing is MDH brand Chana Dal Masala spice (warning: this amazon link is for 10 boxes). I bought a box of this stuff over at one of the many little conveniece stores that dot the Teele Square area back when I lived in Teele Square. Many of those stores seem to specialize in varying brands of Indian food -- one does really good naan, another bulk spices. Anyway, this is one that has a lot of bulk beans and premade spice blends. This spice blend is: delicious, cheap at $2.49, comes with a basic chana dal masala recipe on the back, and makes a *lot* of food since you only use a small bit at a time. I keep the box in the fridge to discourage pantry pests, but since the box has an inner liner it doesn't get clumpy.


The second thing is the lentils I use, which I also got from the same place as the MDH spice blend. They're half-moon-shaped (split) yellow lentils rather than the small flat round lentils you may be more familiar with, but you can use either. Personally, I find that the chana dal lentils cook up faster and tenderer than the other kind of lentil, without turning into mush if you forget and cook them a little bit too long. I also find that when you're making the masala base, you can just let the lentils boil for whatever time it takes you to make the base and then they're ready to add. I got two pounds of these babies for $2.99, and they're very filling; I've eaten about 20 meals off the package. Here's a link to where you can get them online, but I am sure you can find them cheaper at your local Indian grocery.

The third thing is something that was given to me by [livejournal.com profile] ab3nd's previous roommate, when I complimented him on how good his cooking smelled and asked him about what he was making. He had an extra bag of Swad brand Panch Puran and gave it to me. If you scroll *way* down on the website it looks like it lists for about $2.40. This is the most delicious stuff. I now use a tablespoon or two every time I make food with lentils. I think it also might be good with some types of Chinese food although that's the food experimenter in me talking. I basically would eat it raw if I were not busy cooking it up with vegetables and onions. It contains: whole mustard seeds, whole cumin seeds, coriander/caraway seeds, and some totally unknown-to-me spice which looks kind of like that little part which sits in the middle of a peanut and tastes slightly bitter and slightly green, a little bit like celery. I've...almost remembered what it's called in English as I sit here eating them and trying to remember the word for the taste filling my mouth, but it's a no-go. It might be asafotaedia.


For the masala sauce:
2 Tbsp soy margarine
2 Tbsp olive oil
2 Tbsp brown sugar (unpacked)
1/2 Tbsp better than boullion beef flavored soup concentrate
1 clove garlic
2 cubes frozen basil
3 cubes frozen cilantro (I love me some cilantro)
1/2 can tomato paste (6 oz can)
1 can TJ's tomato sauce (15 oz can, you could also use diced canned tomatoes for a chunkier masala sauce)
1/4 lb frozen green beans (that's about 1/4 bag if you have a 1 lb bag)
1 small pepper (optional)
3 medium-sized carrots
1 medium yellow onion
About 3 Tbsp chana dal masala spice
About 3 Tbsp panch paran
About 1 1/2 cups dry chana dal lentils
Water
Pepper
Salt
2 Tbsp Apple Cider Vinegar
1 tsp ground cinnamon
1 Tbsp ground cumin
1 tsp paprika (optional, didn't do much for flavor)
1 Tbsp (yes) ground dry mustard
3-5 Tbsp nutritional yeast
1 Tbsp ground ginger (probably better with fresh, but you'd want to use less)
1 Tbsp chili powder (optional)
1 Tbsp ground turmeric (added a nice color and flavor boost)
2 tsp curry powder (I used McCormick's. Most of the things in the spice mix I added more of separately, but I didn't have fenugreek, bay leaves, celery seed, or nutmeg, and the curry powder mix had all of those).
5 Tbsp red crushed chili flakes (I have a cold and wanted to kill it dead.)

For the rice:
1 1/2 c white rice of your choice
About 2 c water
Pepper
Salt
1 tsp olive oil (optional)

Prepare rice:
I make the rice in a rice cooker. I find that when I add oil the rice sticks a little less to the pan, which is supposed to be nonstick and mostly is but sometimes isn't perfect. I just add the oil, rice, spices, and water all together, swirl it around a little with the rice paddle, and let it do its thing. If you are making this for a lot of people, you will want to make a lot more rice, but I mostly wanted rice as a kind of side-dish so I made less.

Prepare lentils:
Bring a pot of water to a rolling boil. When ready put in the lentils. Keep up the temperature to a rolling boil. Don't be like me and let the pot boil over as you are chopping carrots, though.

Prepare vegetables (this sounds complex but isn't):
Chop carrots in half lengthwise and then in half widthwise. You want large chunks of carrot but want them all about the same size so they cook evenly. Set aside.
Chop garlic cloves. Set aside.
Chop pepper into small strips. Set aside.
Chop pepper (large chunks work well here).

Prepare sauce:
Heat medium-large pot on stove. When warm add olive oil and margarine together (less fat than just using soy margarine, and less burning and a better taste than just using just oil). Let this warm until it bubbles up a little but isn't brown. Add salt and pepper to taste. Add garlic. Mash the garlic around in there until you have nice garlic-flavored oil. Add the basil and do the same thing. The garlic should be just a tiny bit brown when you add the panch paran. Sautee the whole spices in the flavored oil for about 30 seconds. Now the garlic should be a little more brown. Add the broth concentrate, and stir to dissolve. Add the onion. Stir to coat onion with oil and spices. Do not burn the garlic!

Turn heat down and let onion brown a little. It will sweat out its oniony goodness into the pan, which is what you want. If it starts sticking add a tad more olive oil. Then add the brown sugar. This will carmelize the onion and make the oil smell delicious. When onion is clear and browning on the edges add tomato sauce and a little water. Then add tomato paste, stirring to dissolve the paste into the sauce. You might want to turn the heat up a little here but don't overdo it.

Add the cilantro.

By now the lentils are almost done. When the masala sauce starts to thicken, add a few ladles of sauce from the lentil pot to flavor the sauce, and to thin it down a little bit and stop it from sticking to the pot.

Toss in the remaining spices except the chili flakes and powder. Add the nutritional yeast. Then add the chili flakes and powder to taste.

Turn off the heat to the sauce.

Put in the vegetables:
After you turn off the heat, let the warmth of the sauce cook the vegetables perfectly for you. Just pop a lid on the pot for about 5 minutes and everything will be nice and crisp, plus the sauce will be a perfect consistency. First the carrots and frozen beans, then a minute or two later the pepper. The beans should go in frozen, this ensures they are not overcooked by the end. The carrots should end up cooked but firm, not limp and soggy. You put the pepper in last so it is not overcooked, because peppers are pretty delicate.

Put in the drained lentils, and stir.

At the very end stir in the apple cider vinegar. I find it compliments the tomatoes and cuts the spice a little.

Things I would have added to this dish: a bay leaf. I didn't have any, though.

Serve with rice.

Basically, this was delicious. I had two helpings and there was enough left over to last me until at least Wednesday for lunches. So I would say this serves 4-6 people.

Notes

1/9/11 20:52
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Why I never returned your email:
If you have tried to contact me via email in the last month or so, I did not get your email, as I am locked out of all my gmail accounts due to a long and complicated story involving unrecoverable files on a laptop, a backup which failed, a phone which lost the program I needed to recover my files, and the fact that the gmail guardians of last resort will never be convinced that I am really the owner of any of my email addresses, since I cannot remember facts like the specific date on which I first activated my gmail account lo these many years ago. I am currently in the process of trying to figure out what to do next in terms of email communications, and in terms of my Google Plus identity.

TL;DR: I do not recommend implementing google 2-step authentication.

How to contact me now:
Texting me on my cellphone is best. Calling is ok too. When I get an email again I will post it here.

Where are you living now?:
I have settled into the new house. It is good. There are trees, and a small river nearby, and also the city is nearby. I have gotten used to Boston again. I am kind of starting to enjoy living here again.

What are your roommates like?:
Roommate E. went goth clubbing with me and some friends this Monday. It was exhausting but really fun. She is awesome. Roommate J. is almost never here, and he is sometimes very confusing in how he relates to people, although he is also nice. We are looking for a roommate to replace J.

What is your job like?:
My contract with Nokia was not renewed--I made a decision to pursue a career I liked better instead. As far as that goes I was very happy indeed though....recently though through nothing that could have been predicted my job description and responsibilities were changed at a very rapid pace, twice in two weeks, and that has recently thrown me off balance. I hope to work there for some time to come, as long as I continue to really enjoy the job and manage it well, and continue to learn my own strengths/weaknesses as an employee.

Are you staying in Boston for the forseeable future?:
Probably, unless I apply elsewhere for grad school and get a scholarship. I have found there is a food sciences program at Harvard Extension school and am considering figuring out if the program there seems as good a fit for me as the one at IU did. I am still really interested in getting my masters' degree, but need to make sure I pick the right program and right choice and have the resources at hand to back me up.

What is happening with your family?:
My sister is still awesome, as is my brother-in-law.

I attempted to reconcile with my family, with the help and assistance of my therapist, in late June. It did not go well. My father absented himself for half the session, and my mother told me that she was offended on behalf of the truly abused when I claimed I was abused. Some things that they told me make more sense now--I understand now why my mother hurts when I pull back from physical contact with her. But I also understand why I pull back from physical contact. I wish I had understood both of those things sooner. But I am glad I understand them now.

It took me a while to figure out what to do with my family relations after that. I visited my hometown in August, and had a good time with the rest of my extended family, and mourned a cousin who died, and finally came to realize and articulate to myself about a half-month ago that the best course for me would be to let my parents go, finally, because of the fact that they use friends, family, and loved ones to critique and hurt me. They also used me to hurt my friends, family and loved ones by constantly querying my timelines, decisions, choices, efforts and timetables until I started distrusting my own daily choices and hard-won self-knowledge and confidence in my own joy and the joy I found in my loved ones, family, and friends. I became so distrustful of most of my own desires that I questioned away my joyful, confident, knowledgeable, brave, self-assured, and kind self every time I was asked to make a decision. Because I was going through the insidious self-undermining cycle of mental self-flagellation caused by my abusive relationship with my parents--at a time when my partner and I already needed me to stronger, kinder, more effective, and clearly decisive on a daily basis--eventually every single daily decision I made on my own or was asked to make on behalf of the relationship became a process of desperately struggling to trust and express my own needs and wants, or rejecting my own needs and wants and expressing them as selfish, foolish, petty, or undeserving of being met.

I couldn't see the self-abuse, and didn't really know what was happening at the time, other than to know that I knew profound joy and love and respect when I allowed myself to follow my own heart's deepest promptings, and profoundly hurt when I did not allow myself to follow them. I decided to follow my own heart's deepest and most joyful promptings even though I was scared to let myself trust myself. Then, I was so proud to find that trusting and expressing my own joys again made myself and others happy. Then, I was profoundly terrified to learn that my decision to trust myself had not made my partner feel as happy as she said she was, but had made her feel scared and manipulated instead. In learning that, I felt had finally done what I had been taught that trusting my own decisions would inevitably do--cause a lot of hurt. I was taught that expressing my own needs was selfish. I was taught that trusting myself to love people and be loved was foolish because the people who loved me would always eventually admit that though they loved and cared for me, they ultimately felt trapped and constrained by my love and joy and presence in their lives but had felt obligated to lie to me about it because they couldn't bear to see me hurt when they told me the truth--that I was being selfish when I dared to express my love for them.

I stopped making decisions for a long while after that, and just accepted the decisions of others--whatever would make them happiest or most convenient, I did. I was hurt. That's what I do when I'm hurt.

Later, I realized that the above was the opposite of what actually happened. I realized that I could trust myself and my own decisions, I realized the interpretation of what would happen if I trusted myself was colored and twisted by my abuse and my hurt. I feel really proud and happy I realized that.

In the time between trusting my first decision, and knowing with the sick logic of the abused that I had hurt people by trusting myself and daring to have the audacity to love someone and be loved back, and realizing that that incorrect interpretation of events was formed by the patterns of self-doubt and questioning-abuse that bringing my joyful relationship to my parents had re-started in my own head, there were a few months where I felt a great self-loathing for my own capacity for love and joy.
There were a few months where I really believed that by allowing myself to trust myself, by being proud of my ability to do so, and by being proud of my ability to love others and be loved, I had been utterly selfish, and bore direct responsibility for the breakup. I felt that if I hadn't ever given in to allowing myself to selfishly love and trust her and trust myself to be with her, she would never have felt constrained by my love, never felt she had to lie to me about her perspective on my choices, never had to feel as if she had to tell me she was happy with me when she wasn't, and never needed me to leave. I hurt a lot.

I said a lot of things about myself that weren't kind that I regret. I said a lot of things about others that weren't kind that I regret. I don't think I could have gotten here today without having gone through that period of hating myself for being able to trust in my choices, hating that I could trust that my partners were telling me the truth, and hating myself for loving myself enough to allow myself to express my needs, which finally showed itself up as the foolishness it was all along.

It is good to trust myself. It is good to express my choices. It is good to love and be loved. What wasn't good was letting my self-confidence get undermined by my parents' insidious questioning of all my choices, such that I myself began questioning those things and hurt myself and the people I loved.

I can't think of a way to have a relationship with my parents that won't ultimately end in their raising objections and tiny undermining critiquing questions about everything I do, am, want to be, or who or what I love. I can't talk with them without talking about those things. They don't have the willpower to resist getting me to question every decision I make, and I believe they don't fully understand what they are doing. I don't have the ability, even after a decade of being on my own and learning--and being taught--to love myself and others better and better, to fully evade the abuse pattern. I don't know if any amount of self-love and self-confidence would ever be enough, because the more I have of it the more they use it as a weapon to convince me I am selfish and ungrateful, and turn me against my own best self. So, I am not talking to them any more.

I should have cut off relations with them fully last summer for my own health, but I had to be sure that I was making a decision that was good for me and not just good for my relationships--if it had been good for my relationships but bad for me it would ultimately have been a bad decision for my relationships as well.

TL;DR: I am cutting off relationships with my parents: the better I get, the more they use it against me and the people I love. They use the love I have for others to critique and hurt me and get me to doubt myself, and they use the love others have for me to critique and hurt others and get them to doubt themselves through my doubt. They have even done it to themselves, with their own love. This is unacceptable. They cannot stop. The better I get, the more ammo I give them. This is unfortunate, but I am not even really sad about it anymore; it's been more than a year coming slowly to this decision, since even mid 2009 I think, at the engagement party my parents threw for us: they didn't care if I or my partner wanted it. They were throwing it for themselves in a very real sense. I started to try and convince myself that they were doing it for me and my partner because I wanted to convince myself of that so badly, and I succeeded. When they did not call her when I was sick the summer of 2010, I tried to convince myself that it was because I had never done a good job of showing my family what I loved about her, because I so badly didn't want to admit that they would never respect me and the choices I made in my life, and I succeeded. From there, a whole host of doubts flowed and paralyzed my every move. No more.

I feel a vast sense of relief and the beginnings of a new life.

How is your health?:
Generally pretty ok, though often I have to go off antidepressants as I do not have enough money to pay for my psych services out of pocket and they do not take the state healthcare plan (no health insurance at job). However, I am still getting antidepressants and going to counseling when I can afford it, and enjoy it. It has been really helpful. I got a new doctor early this spring. I have not yet visited her; when I do for my yearly October visit I plan on introducing myself and asking for new hormone level tests, as well as discussing the fact that my psych medication noticeably interacts with my PMS in somewhat confusing ways. I also plan on asking for an allergy referral and a sleep study, as I have been having problems with my sleep cycle for years now and might finally have the resources to get help for myself.

I am tentatively trying out going vegetarian for health reasons, as I suspect I might have the beginnings of a latex-fruit reactivity problem. I am also putting it off for health reasons, as I know I have a lactose intolerance that makes me ill and uncomfortable for days at a time. I am also putting it off for ethical reasons, as I am really uncomfortable eating the commercially-produced milk, cheese and eggs that appear in so many processed food products now.

What have you been doing?:
Reading, writing, and healing. The fey novel is going to be about abuse, recovery, and its complexities: I cried when I realized that. I have also been hiking and swimming a lot. There is a lake about a mile from my house in one direction. There is a bookstore about a mile in the other direction. Life is, generally, good.

How are your pets?:
Tokai is finally eating on her own again. I am thrilled. She is a mighty huntress! Oolong is herself. She is adorable and fluffy and somewhat dopey. She's also 3 next month.
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So, I have a secret: I love jerky. It's no good though, full of disgusting meat ends and preservatives. I have been looking for primal vegan jerky in the Boston area since the vegan food fest last fall, and now I've found the seitan flavor--at the usually vegan-food-free wasteland of the Porter Square MBTA kiosk.

Cons: a little bit expensive, around a dollar a stick. Only one flavor, seitan, is available--I want to try mushroom! A little salty.

Pros: juicy, great texture, delicious flavor. Satisfies jerky craving. Has tons of protein, which I need in the morning. Flat pack fits in bag for biking, etc.

http://www.primalspiritfoods.com/products.php

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I really like asparagus. But the kind of asparagus you usually get at any store usually has, well...very tough stems. It's not like eating asparagus: it's like eating a branch. Even vegans don't want that. So, since I cannot miraculously get good asparagus around here, and I have enough roughage in my diet with the daily oatmeal, I thought to try Trader Joe's frozen asparagus.

I used it in my previously mentioned Bento box, in a recipe that just covers the asparagus with the bare minimum of deliciousness (lemon, olive oil, salt, and pepper) and then leaves it to cook in the oven for a bit. The asparagus really is the star of this dish; it needs to be tender and juicy.

I put the entirely frozen asparagus right into the lemon juice mix and waited. It came out great! The asparagus is small enough to cook tender all the way through without getting too mushy, and there is no woody or bitter aftertaste. There is not a *ton* of asparagus in the package, but asparagus is such a delicious and assertive vegetable that you generally don't need more than 2-4 spears of asparagus per person (on risotto, or pasta, or what-have you).

The only drawback to its being frozen is that sometimes the very tips of the heads break off. But that's ok: they're still delicious. It is a little cheaper than regular asparagus, too, which is good. I hope TJ's carries it all year round.
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- Gardening!
Gardening is great. I have half of the garden in the back. The roses and the irises are blooming, and in my little garden I have planted: about 6 tiny little lettuces, which I hope will grow; 1 fennel plant which was already sprouting; 5 wild onions and 5 regular onions; 1 garlic which sprouted right in the bag from TJ's and is now growing happily; two strawberry plants which will produce next year and not this year; and now 2 zucchini plants and 6 chili pepper plants I bought from the farmers' market today.

- Cooking!
Cooking is also great. I am mostly cooking on weekends or on the evenings of my days off, and making a lot so I can take it to work in my bento box. Stuff I've made lately: Cold pasta salad with lemon asparagus with garlic; romaine lettuce salad with apples and candied chestnuts and cilantro vegan dressing; little fake pizzas with capers and olives and Daiya cheese on a whole wheat tortilla, delicious to eat cold;
vegan chocolate mousse (fantastic when frozen, use an immersion blender and your life will be easier); and now I am making a quick rhubarb compote with farmers' market rhubarb.

But by far my favorite is My Grandma's Chicken Tofu & Dumplings!



Here is the vegan-ized recipe from my grandma. <3

Since it uses tofu rather than chicken, instead of taking hours to cook (the original recipe calls for 1 hr 30 min of chicken cooking time before you do anything else), it takes about 45m-60 m total, not counting cooling time. This is an excellent recipe to use up whatever vegetables are left in your refrigerator. Warning: the dumplings expand. Next time I make this I am planning on using half the dumpling mix and freezing the rest.

This is super-hearty; great for winter but also good eaten cold (IMO). You may want a really big soup pot/casserole. My 4-quart enameled casserole dish barely held all of this stuff; I think the only reason the lid did not fly off was because it was cast iron.

This freezes well and serves 4-6 people.

What you need:
1 pack firm tofu
3 to 4 c vegetable broth
thyme to taste
1 bay leaf
parsley to taste
salt
other spices to taste (I think I used rosemary, sage, and a little ground mustard)
carrot, sliced
onion, chopped roughly (optional)
garlic, chopped
celery, chopped roughly
potatoes, chopped (optional. I left these out because the dumplings are really hearty, and I am glad I did).
about 1/3 c Frozen or fresh peas (if using peas of whatever type, put them in last on top of the dumplings just before you steam them. It will cook them perfectly without making them mushy).
1 Tbsp olive oil
1 to 1/2 c chopped mushrooms (optional, but I found it did good things for the broth)

Dumplings
2 c all purpose flour
3 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt (this salt really only interacts with the baking powder)
2 Tbsp cold vegan margarine or vegan shortening
1 c cold soy or almond milk (almond milk makes the dumplings sweeter)
salt/pepper to taste (optional)


Dice tofu into 1 in. squares. Saute tofu in pan with olive oil, garlic, and onions. When it is brown and crispy on the outside but still chewy on the inside, remove from heat.

In a large covered casserole dish or large stock pot, put broth, mushrooms, and all remaining vegetables (except peas). Add spices, salt and pepper. Let simmer until vegetables are slightly less than tender and still very bright (about 20m). After 20 min, add the onions, garlic and tofu. Remove pot from heat after adding these items. (This keeps the tofu from dissolving into nothingness, but stops it from getting cold, and also the garlic and onion have time to cook a little more into the soup since the soup is still warm).

While the soup is simmering make the dumplings:
Sift together flour, salt, and baking powder.
Cut in cold shortening or margarine using knives, pastry cutter/blender, or food processor.
Gradually add cold soy/almond milk. Mix until smooth (this will have the consistency of bread dough). (All this stuff is cold so the dumplings mix well and hold together better).

Drop dumpling dough by tiny tablespoon-fulls into soup. Sort of press the dumplings down into the soup so they do not all stick together at the top, though you want some at the top. At this time add the peas on top of the top layer of dumplings if you are using peas.

Then cover the pot tightly, put the pot back onto the stove, and simmer 10-12 m without removing the lid until the dumplings are all floating to the top and the vegetables are tender but still bright. (The entirely-in-soup dumplings will get chewy, the top dumplings will steam on the top and absorb the soup on the bottom and form a delicious crust of deliciousness).

You are left with only a little bit of broth at the end; the dumplings absorb the soup to turn everything into a light gravy-like coating. So if you don't like soup, don't worry: there is only about a tablespoon of soup that doesn't turn automatically into gravy deliciousness.

Enjoy!
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I've been doing fewer vegan food reviews lately because:
1.) Last week the motherboard on my laptop died and my laptop is Totally Dead. I spent about a day this weekend trying to do an emergency rescue, but it's no good.
2.) It's hard to write these on my cellphone, as the wifi on the commuter rail is sketchy at best.
3.) I've got a two hour commute at least two days a week that has me leaving the house at 7:45 am and not getting back until 8 or 9 at night.
4.) Did you know that I don't sweat, even when the temps in my apartment reach over 90? I didn't either, but I've been trying to do research to figure out why.

However, this doesn't mean I haven't been cooking. This week, I did vegan chocolate mousse, a Big Vat of Hummus, my Famous Chocolate Almond Raisin Banana Bread to bring for my coworkers tomorrow, and my newest bento for tomorrow's lunch features the Tahini-Miso dressing from the Veganomicon (with added pepper, salt, lemon juice, and some minced garlic).

So, this is a review of Trader Joe's Tahini Sauce. It's new in the Trader Joe's stores in MA. I thought they had Tahini Paste previously, but I guess not.

Mostly, I find straight-up Tahini Paste to be really strong. I like sesame, but sometimes the paste is just too much of a good thing. That's why I like Trader Joe's tahini sauce. It's light, delicate, and almost whipped; less a "paste" than a "sauce," like the tin says. It says, "sesame." It does not say, "SESAME the consistency of PEANUT BUTTER!" You get a little 8-oz tub, which if you're me about 2/3rds of it goes into about 3 cups' worth of finished hummus, and there's about 1/4 c left over.

Note: It does not *say* it's vegan, but the ingredients are: tahini (sesame seed sauce), lemon juice, citric acid, water, garlic, and salt, so if it's not I'd be surprised.

I think it's the lemon and garlic that really cut and complement the flavor of the sesame, for me. This is by far my #1 tahini paste...now only if I can get TJ's to carry it year-round instead of just stocking it as some kind of summer thing.
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[livejournal.com profile] ab3nd and I are making Dandelion wine this spring, because for once I finally thought of it before the dandelions were all gone, and [livejournal.com profile] ab3nd has the right equipment already so there wasn't a huge outlay for, say, specialty labglass, so if it all goes wrong then I won't have started an expensive new hobby only to find out I don't actually like it.

We are using the first recipe on this winemaking website. Most of the recipes we found on the internet when doing research involved Welch's Grape Juice Concentrate; this was unacceptable to me. I wanted my wine to taste like dandelions and maybe grass, not be reminiscent of Communion and full of reconstituted grapes and corn syrup...even if I wanted my wine to taste like it was made with grapes, I would make wine from grapes.

Stuff we had to get at the beer store:
- 1 three-gallon bucket with spigot on top
- 1 packet wine yeast. I chose "Vintner's Harvest" brand SN9, Saccharomyes bayanus, because it claimed it was good for flower based wines and also was much less delicate than the other type of yeast recommended for flower wines, which had a special note about how it was kind of finicky and needed TLC.

The local beermaking store also had a load of weird spices and cooking ingredients mostly last seen in things like the medieval cookbook I have--like juniper berries, dried rosehips, candy sugar in both brown and white varieties, oak pieces, and cacao seeds. If I need really weird spices, now I know where to go. Unfortunately, the helpful guy at the store told me that they don't have fresh yeast suitable for bread making, so my search continues for fresh bread yeast in the Boston area. They also had a half-gallon of agave syrup for 13.00, so I know where I am getting my agave syrup from now on. :)

Yeah. More pictures soon.

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