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eredienSo. Rundown:
Bad:
-All my friends here are leaving tomorrow or Saturday if they haven't left before I even got here, except for Aaron, who is starting classes on Monday and will therefore be just as gone.
-Today drove sister for an hour across town only to find out that the gateway computer store that used to be in the officemax had been quietly removed and wasn't there anymore.
-Must get wisdom teeth removed over Christmas. Hope this does not interfere with possible internship at Tor that I applied for.
-Bored because half my day consists of sitting around waiting for my sister to call for a ride, unless I am actually a.)driving or b.)with soon-to-be-gone friends, which makes me sad even when I am with them having fun.
-Missing martial arts classes and therefore being too energetic for my own good.
-Parents "may not be able" (their words) to make it to bring my stuff down to meet me on weekend of move-in to college. Therefore will have to cram necessities of College Life at Bryn Mawr for First Week of Classes, including lantern for Parade Night, in suitcase on train to Virginia. Cannot figure out how I am going to sanely unpack and do weekend's worth of homework at the same time if they come down after move-in weekend. Cannot figure out why my parents suddenly decided they couldn't do it, since they would have had to bring me to Bryn Mawr that weekend anyway.
-Thought more about crazy schedule for next semester, where I am doing something nearly every night in addition to plain just doing work. Worry that I might have to quit doing something I love and enjoy that keeps me sane simply to handle class-stress-workload-stuff. Right now Renchoir is the most likely canidate, but this makes me sad as I like to sing and also just joined a year ago.
Anime club is actually first on the list, but as I only go about half the time anyway, it really doesn't seem to make that much difference, and it doesn't take up nearly as much time/stress energy as renchoir.
-Worry about various people who I desperately only want to go and hug and make everything better for, but can't.
Good:
-Air conditioning.
-Saw some friends before they left.
-Got ideas for both articles I need to write and will write them this week sometime.
-Finished reading Up from Dragons, previously mentioned. Was good, and got me thinking again about story-as-consciousness on a very different and excruciatingly interesting level.
-Doing lots of piano practice.
-Going out to eat with Kent (pastor of church and good friend) on Monday.
-Told parents about Kelly. Were absolutely shocked that they were happy about my having a boyfriend and having a boyfriend in these circumstances in particular, since they don't like to let me walk the dog around the block after nine at night, but was happy. Also vaguely amused; they'd thought I had a crush on Randal. Also happy that Kelly will sometime in the fall come to visit so people can meet him.
-Friend who lives in Florida and haven't seen in ages is home.
-Will indeed get to go to Virginia in less than a week, where everything will be better. And there shall be water for swimming in, and friends, and birds, and mountains.
This will be good.
Will go to bed now. Wish desperately that I wasn't so lonely. Even after spending two hours talking with friends this evening still feel quite lonely, and cannot pinpoint why exactly.
Bad:
-All my friends here are leaving tomorrow or Saturday if they haven't left before I even got here, except for Aaron, who is starting classes on Monday and will therefore be just as gone.
-Today drove sister for an hour across town only to find out that the gateway computer store that used to be in the officemax had been quietly removed and wasn't there anymore.
-Must get wisdom teeth removed over Christmas. Hope this does not interfere with possible internship at Tor that I applied for.
-Bored because half my day consists of sitting around waiting for my sister to call for a ride, unless I am actually a.)driving or b.)with soon-to-be-gone friends, which makes me sad even when I am with them having fun.
-Missing martial arts classes and therefore being too energetic for my own good.
-Parents "may not be able" (their words) to make it to bring my stuff down to meet me on weekend of move-in to college. Therefore will have to cram necessities of College Life at Bryn Mawr for First Week of Classes, including lantern for Parade Night, in suitcase on train to Virginia. Cannot figure out how I am going to sanely unpack and do weekend's worth of homework at the same time if they come down after move-in weekend. Cannot figure out why my parents suddenly decided they couldn't do it, since they would have had to bring me to Bryn Mawr that weekend anyway.
-Thought more about crazy schedule for next semester, where I am doing something nearly every night in addition to plain just doing work. Worry that I might have to quit doing something I love and enjoy that keeps me sane simply to handle class-stress-workload-stuff. Right now Renchoir is the most likely canidate, but this makes me sad as I like to sing and also just joined a year ago.
Anime club is actually first on the list, but as I only go about half the time anyway, it really doesn't seem to make that much difference, and it doesn't take up nearly as much time/stress energy as renchoir.
-Worry about various people who I desperately only want to go and hug and make everything better for, but can't.
Good:
-Air conditioning.
-Saw some friends before they left.
-Got ideas for both articles I need to write and will write them this week sometime.
-Finished reading Up from Dragons, previously mentioned. Was good, and got me thinking again about story-as-consciousness on a very different and excruciatingly interesting level.
-Doing lots of piano practice.
-Going out to eat with Kent (pastor of church and good friend) on Monday.
-Told parents about Kelly. Were absolutely shocked that they were happy about my having a boyfriend and having a boyfriend in these circumstances in particular, since they don't like to let me walk the dog around the block after nine at night, but was happy. Also vaguely amused; they'd thought I had a crush on Randal. Also happy that Kelly will sometime in the fall come to visit so people can meet him.
-Friend who lives in Florida and haven't seen in ages is home.
-Will indeed get to go to Virginia in less than a week, where everything will be better. And there shall be water for swimming in, and friends, and birds, and mountains.
This will be good.
Will go to bed now. Wish desperately that I wasn't so lonely. Even after spending two hours talking with friends this evening still feel quite lonely, and cannot pinpoint why exactly.
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22/8/02 21:54 (UTC)I am an overworked Mawrtyr, hear me roar!
23/8/02 09:57 (UTC)My last semester at Bryn Mawr I was taking two night classes (one of them chorale) in four musical groups meeting in the afternoons and evenings and was working in the theater departement which not only sucked up two afternoons a week, but took over any free time I had not taken up by musical groups and even some time that was taken up with musical groups. Standard course load, not too difficult with the exception of the time suck that was my architectural design class.
I had no time. It was great. Try not dropping the things you love -- they do keep you sane and even though they take up time you could be doing work, the time when you do do work will be more productive. and you'll be happier and less stressed because you'll be doing things you love.
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24/8/02 19:11 (UTC)-the IW
PS: i'd like to hear about the story-as-consciousness thing when i see you: it sounds very cool.
Thanks
25/8/02 16:57 (UTC)Batshua: I hope so! *hug and wellwishes*
WierdQuark: Yes, I've decided this to be the best idea and shall at least try it out for a month or two before deciding what, if anything, to change. :)
IW: Yes. We can talk more about this in a few days if you want. It will require my sitting down with you for at least an hour but will undoubtedly be fun and interesting.