Meds

[eredien]

I really wish I'd been able to get on meds at any time since January of this year, which is when I admitted to myself and my therapist that I needed them. I think that everything would not feel as bad right now because probably things would have felt much better earlier and I could have avoided this whole thing if only I had been able to admit that I needed them earlier.

I'm so tired of feeling this depressed day-in and day-out no matter what else is going on in my life; it's like pure sadness is my constant companion. And I really wish I had been able to find a therapist in Bloomington who was not on vacation for all of July.

rax says that she can see being ok from where she's standing, but for me I was finally starting to see ok before we broke up, and now ok seems as far away as nebulas.

Comments

[seishonagon.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I hope things work out such that you can get the help you need. I'll be on a three-hours-early time difference for the next week, but given that, feel free to call. I'd be happy to talk or listen if you need me to.

[kaypendragon.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you've already tried this but it's come up several times this week and you seem like you could use the idea and when the universe tries to tell me stuff, I try to listen.

I was talking with a gentleman who also suffers from an odd form of depression the other day and we were discussing how we both used mood journals to help.
It's really useful to, each day, write what you did and how you feel. It makes it easier to see what works and what doesn't. It made it easier for me to see that there were good days, or at least good times, which in turn made it a little easier to deal with all the bad.

Also, if you think it would help to talk to someone who has been through depression and has seen a light on the other side, I'd be happy to put you in contact with said gentleman (and I'm happy to talk and listen myself).

[gaudior.livejournal.com]

You are hugged.