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Readercon 2010
3/6/10 23:30Unfortunately, I will not be attending Readercon this year. I had planned on attending for professional & friendship reasons, but a few things happened:
- I don't have an income right now and will probably not be going to any cons this year; it's quite a large expense. Given that I don't live in the Boston area anymore, there would be a lot of travel expenses to get there, a lot of travel and food expenses once I was there, and possible hotel expenses. Can't afford it.
- I have decided, after consultation with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rax, not to get a job immediately. Instead, I have an opportunity to write and otherwise make art full-time for the next few months. I am at a point in my life where I need to take that opportunity. If it works, I believe it will improve my life in a number of ways. If it doesn't work, I will have at least tried that life-path, found that I don't have the chops to do it the way it needs to be done, and try to make my work and life better some other way.
Last year, my pre-Readercon stress levels were quite high--though I enjoyed myself at the con, it did not actually contribute to a drop in my stress levels. Instead, I felt both inspired and anxious to start work, and as if I was not doing anything creatively useful with my life and that the writing I was producing was not of a very good quality. This year, my pre-Readercon stress levels are also quite high, though along slightly different axes. I do not feel it's useful to pause my two months' life-creativity experiment in the middle to go to a function which, though loved, has been verified to make me feel less-creative and more anxious about my capability to produce creative work in general.
- I look forward to reading con reports from those of you who do attend. I will seek them out in the usual places; if you see any particularly good ones you think I haven't, let me know.
- I am sad that I will not be seeing my friends there, but I will be in Boston for a week in August so hopefully can see many of you then. Out-of-town folks, I apologize preemptively for missing you.
- I don't have an income right now and will probably not be going to any cons this year; it's quite a large expense. Given that I don't live in the Boston area anymore, there would be a lot of travel expenses to get there, a lot of travel and food expenses once I was there, and possible hotel expenses. Can't afford it.
- I have decided, after consultation with
rax, not to get a job immediately. Instead, I have an opportunity to write and otherwise make art full-time for the next few months. I am at a point in my life where I need to take that opportunity. If it works, I believe it will improve my life in a number of ways. If it doesn't work, I will have at least tried that life-path, found that I don't have the chops to do it the way it needs to be done, and try to make my work and life better some other way.Last year, my pre-Readercon stress levels were quite high--though I enjoyed myself at the con, it did not actually contribute to a drop in my stress levels. Instead, I felt both inspired and anxious to start work, and as if I was not doing anything creatively useful with my life and that the writing I was producing was not of a very good quality. This year, my pre-Readercon stress levels are also quite high, though along slightly different axes. I do not feel it's useful to pause my two months' life-creativity experiment in the middle to go to a function which, though loved, has been verified to make me feel less-creative and more anxious about my capability to produce creative work in general.
- I look forward to reading con reports from those of you who do attend. I will seek them out in the usual places; if you see any particularly good ones you think I haven't, let me know.
- I am sad that I will not be seeing my friends there, but I will be in Boston for a week in August so hopefully can see many of you then. Out-of-town folks, I apologize preemptively for missing you.
