Letter to God
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eredien2/18/05
Dear God,
I had a great time at the con today. I learned a lot about book marketing and took notes for my new novel ideas and saw authors whose books I'd loved since childhood.
I really like SF cons. People there are generally intelligent and well-read.
I would like to continue going to such functions without feeling paranoid, though. So, quit it with the creepy people already.
I thought the incident at Worldcon '01 was mildly disconcerting, but that was no one's fault. No one could've known he was a nudist.
But today's married guy with kids: "I don't want you to think I'm hitting on you. But what are you doing this evening?"
Not ok, God. Please stop.
If I am doing something to make people think I am an easy target for this kind of thing, help me figure out what it is.
If I am doing something to make halfway-sane, intelligent, kind people--the type with whom I would actually like to have a stable relationship--go out of their way to avoid me, help me figure out what that is, too.
I don't want to walk home again thinking I know how to use the keys that are in my hand. I will scream and go for the eyes.
Thank you.
- Eredien
Dear God,
I had a great time at the con today. I learned a lot about book marketing and took notes for my new novel ideas and saw authors whose books I'd loved since childhood.
I really like SF cons. People there are generally intelligent and well-read.
I would like to continue going to such functions without feeling paranoid, though. So, quit it with the creepy people already.
I thought the incident at Worldcon '01 was mildly disconcerting, but that was no one's fault. No one could've known he was a nudist.
But today's married guy with kids: "I don't want you to think I'm hitting on you. But what are you doing this evening?"
Not ok, God. Please stop.
If I am doing something to make people think I am an easy target for this kind of thing, help me figure out what it is.
If I am doing something to make halfway-sane, intelligent, kind people--the type with whom I would actually like to have a stable relationship--go out of their way to avoid me, help me figure out what that is, too.
I don't want to walk home again thinking I know how to use the keys that are in my hand. I will scream and go for the eyes.
Thank you.
- Eredien
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cons...sketchy people
21/2/05 23:05 (UTC)Of course I told him no, and he backed off, but said that if I ever changed my mind he'd be ready for me. Um sorry, no, isn't going to happen. We still sat at the same table at dinner with about 8 other mutual friends. He was kind of boring to talk to though. Even if he hadn't been sketchy about it, he still wouldn't be my type. And of course later, another friend who knew the story got very drunk and accidently started the rumor that I did steal his virginity, and wow did that rumor spread fast. I squashed it on my end, but I think the guy encouraged it a bit. I don't really care since all of my friends from the con know it didn't happen.
Its good to go to cons with other people, so you always have friends to retreat to when someone gets all weird.