Paul, I thought that full-time work didn't have to preclude creativity:
I thought I could do this, and worked from 2005-2010 in jobs that I thought would let me do this, and it didn't happen...I don't want to squander another half-decade of my life pretending like I'm going to write a novel, but knowing full well it's not going to happen because I've got no time or energy.
But for me, I found that believing that full time-work did not preclude creativity meant that I was slow to recognize that for me, full-time work did preclude creativity. I've tried the bringing the notebook to work tactic, but for me, the problem comes after I get home--I'm too exhausted from interacting with people all day that I end up with notebooks and notebooks full of ideas that sit there for years, and when it's 8 pm and dinner and laundry are done, I simply don't have the energy to start in on another two to five hours of intense work a night.
I mean, I've tried that route, folks. I said it, right there. And I know from my own experience that I'm just going to sit there at a desk and think about the novel I want to be writing, and won't actually do it after I get home from work because I will be too hosed. All the wishful thinking in the world that it was otherwise wouldn't work, and I know that because I thought a lot of wishful thinking during that time, too.
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4/9/10 22:43 (UTC)I thought I could do this, and worked from 2005-2010 in jobs that I thought would let me do this, and it didn't happen...I don't want to squander another half-decade of my life pretending like I'm going to write a novel, but knowing full well it's not going to happen because I've got no time or energy.
But for me, I found that believing that full time-work did not preclude creativity meant that I was slow to recognize that for me, full-time work did preclude creativity. I've tried the bringing the notebook to work tactic, but for me, the problem comes after I get home--I'm too exhausted from interacting with people all day that I end up with notebooks and notebooks full of ideas that sit there for years, and when it's 8 pm and dinner and laundry are done, I simply don't have the energy to start in on another two to five hours of intense work a night.
I mean, I've tried that route, folks. I said it, right there. And I know from my own experience that I'm just going to sit there at a desk and think about the novel I want to be writing, and won't actually do it after I get home from work because I will be too hosed. All the wishful thinking in the world that it was otherwise wouldn't work, and I know that because I thought a lot of wishful thinking during that time, too.