I'm already talking to a therapist, and I have finally (after two and a half years of trying) gotten a promise to get a referral to a psychotherapist--psychologist--dammit can't remember which one prescribes meds--who can do an evaluation and put me on medication (the first therapist I went to didn't think I needed meds, and the one I've been seeing wanted to put me on them earlier, but there was no time to monitor side effects before the move, and the one I saw in Bloomington was going to get me a meds evaluation after we were both done with our respective vacations, but that plan didn't work out).
I keep reading the symptoms of thyroid problems, because for a while my general practitioner thought maybe I was overweight because of my thyroid, and had a lot of bloodwork done in '06 or so, but nothing came back; I had normal levels of all the regular hormones. My sister has PCOS and my mom has diabetes, so maybe I should get tested again, though.
I went to a nutritionist twice before I left Boston on the advice of my doctor, but her suggestions were *useless* ("you're smart, read the label to see how many calories something has and then only eat up to a certain amount of calories," and "you don't have to eat everything; just remind yourself you're not in a rfugee camp," to which I responded, "don't you think I haven't noticed that? I find that offensive on a number of levels! You aren't addressing my problem, which is that I still want to eat because I never feel full, regardless of calories or of the availability of food in general!")
I have the following symptoms of thyroid problems:
Hyperthyroidism:
* Weight loss despite increased appetite * Increased heart rate, heart palpitations, higher blood pressure, nervousness, and excessive perspiration * More frequent bowel movements, sometimes with diarrhea * Muscle weakness, trembling hands * Development of a goiter (an enlargement in your neck) * Lighter or shorter menstrual periods
Hypothyroidism:
* Lethargy, slower mental processes or depression * Reduced heart rate * Increased sensitivity to cold * Tingling or numbness in the hands * Development of a goiter (an enlargement in your neck) * Constipation, heavy menstrual periods or dry skin and hair
I've talked to my doctor about the heart palpitations, which bother me (I mean, they're freaking heart palpitations!), and the increasing numbness and tingling in my hands, etc., but the blood tests a few years ago to check out why I was having super-irregular periods didn't show anything wrong, and everyone just thinks it's depression and obesity.
But I just feel weird when I'm typing, like I am now, and am having trouble hitting the keys because my fingers aren't *quite* responding in the way that I want them to--my muscles, especially the ones in my hands and in my lower legs, feel *exhausted* all of the time, as if I'd been using them a lot, but not pushing them hard, all the day before. It's not a soreness, really, it's just a lack of strength and--responsiveness. It's like when your computer is busy thinking and you move the mouse around and it follows the motion, but all the positions are a quarter-second behind. That's the only way I can put it that makes sense. And sometimes I go to pick up something and, once I've got it, my hand just opens up on its own, and the thing drops and breaks. It's really, really annoying. But the people I've been to can't find anything wrong and they don't seem disturbed when I tell them my symptoms.
Everyone just tells me these things will go away when I lose weight and get on antidepression meds. And maybe some of it will, but I am pretty sure antidepression meds are not causing me to drop things on the floor. I'm not sure what to do.
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3/9/10 17:32 (UTC)I'm already talking to a therapist, and I have finally (after two and a half years of trying) gotten a promise to get a referral to a psychotherapist--psychologist--dammit can't remember which one prescribes meds--who can do an evaluation and put me on medication (the first therapist I went to didn't think I needed meds, and the one I've been seeing wanted to put me on them earlier, but there was no time to monitor side effects before the move, and the one I saw in Bloomington was going to get me a meds evaluation after we were both done with our respective vacations, but that plan didn't work out).
I keep reading the symptoms of thyroid problems, because for a while my general practitioner thought maybe I was overweight because of my thyroid, and had a lot of bloodwork done in '06 or so, but nothing came back; I had normal levels of all the regular hormones. My sister has PCOS and my mom has diabetes, so maybe I should get tested again, though.
I went to a nutritionist twice before I left Boston on the advice of my doctor, but her suggestions were *useless* ("you're smart, read the label to see how many calories something has and then only eat up to a certain amount of calories," and "you don't have to eat everything; just remind yourself you're not in a rfugee camp," to which I responded, "don't you think I haven't noticed that? I find that offensive on a number of levels! You aren't addressing my problem, which is that I still want to eat because I never feel full, regardless of calories or of the availability of food in general!")
I have the following symptoms of thyroid problems:
Hyperthyroidism:
* Weight loss despite increased appetiteheart palpitations,* Increased heart rate,
higher blood pressure, nervousness, and excessive perspiration* More frequent bowel movements, sometimes with diarrhea
* Muscle weakness, trembling hands
* Development of a goiter (an enlargement in your neck)* Lighter or shorter menstrual periods
Hypothyroidism:
* Lethargy, slower mental processes or depression
* Reduced heart rate* Increased sensitivity to cold
* Tingling or numbness in the hands
* Development of a goiter (an enlargement in your neck)* Constipation, heavy menstrual periods or dry
skinand hairI've talked to my doctor about the heart palpitations, which bother me (I mean, they're freaking heart palpitations!), and the increasing numbness and tingling in my hands, etc., but the blood tests a few years ago to check out why I was having super-irregular periods didn't show anything wrong, and everyone just thinks it's depression and obesity.
But I just feel weird when I'm typing, like I am now, and am having trouble hitting the keys because my fingers aren't *quite* responding in the way that I want them to--my muscles, especially the ones in my hands and in my lower legs, feel *exhausted* all of the time, as if I'd been using them a lot, but not pushing them hard, all the day before. It's not a soreness, really, it's just a lack of strength and--responsiveness. It's like when your computer is busy thinking and you move the mouse around and it follows the motion, but all the positions are a quarter-second behind. That's the only way I can put it that makes sense. And sometimes I go to pick up something and, once I've got it, my hand just opens up on its own, and the thing drops and breaks. It's really, really annoying. But the people I've been to can't find anything wrong and they don't seem disturbed when I tell them my symptoms.
Everyone just tells me these things will go away when I lose weight and get on antidepression meds. And maybe some of it will, but I am pretty sure antidepression meds are not causing me to drop things on the floor. I'm not sure what to do.