Family & Dreams
10/10/04 10:17![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eredienI am so glad I cannot remember the details of the dream I had at 4 am last night. I woke up wondering if I'd accidentally woken my mother with whimpers, glad that I had not yet progressed to the screaming stage. All I remember was that the Crimson King showed up.
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I don't think I ever knew before Bryn Mawr what family was really like. I had my sister, who's family but only one person does not a family make, and my friends online and off, who were and are family, but who left at the end of the day to go to their own homes. It wasn't the same as having a group of people around you *all the time* who cared for you and loved you and helped you expect the best from yourself and of them.
I am experiencing a new emotion. It took me a while to name it because I don't think I really ever felt it before and had to deduct from reasoning, and not emotion, what it was. I am missing my family.
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I don't think I ever knew before Bryn Mawr what family was really like. I had my sister, who's family but only one person does not a family make, and my friends online and off, who were and are family, but who left at the end of the day to go to their own homes. It wasn't the same as having a group of people around you *all the time* who cared for you and loved you and helped you expect the best from yourself and of them.
I am experiencing a new emotion. It took me a while to name it because I don't think I really ever felt it before and had to deduct from reasoning, and not emotion, what it was. I am missing my family.