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This is more a recipe than a review, but this was so delicious I wanted to write it down right away. I have been eating a lot of variations on "lentils and..." lately, and wanted to talk about some things that make that delicious instead of totally boring every day.

The first thing is MDH brand Chana Dal Masala spice (warning: this amazon link is for 10 boxes). I bought a box of this stuff over at one of the many little conveniece stores that dot the Teele Square area back when I lived in Teele Square. Many of those stores seem to specialize in varying brands of Indian food -- one does really good naan, another bulk spices. Anyway, this is one that has a lot of bulk beans and premade spice blends. This spice blend is: delicious, cheap at $2.49, comes with a basic chana dal masala recipe on the back, and makes a *lot* of food since you only use a small bit at a time. I keep the box in the fridge to discourage pantry pests, but since the box has an inner liner it doesn't get clumpy.


The second thing is the lentils I use, which I also got from the same place as the MDH spice blend. They're half-moon-shaped (split) yellow lentils rather than the small flat round lentils you may be more familiar with, but you can use either. Personally, I find that the chana dal lentils cook up faster and tenderer than the other kind of lentil, without turning into mush if you forget and cook them a little bit too long. I also find that when you're making the masala base, you can just let the lentils boil for whatever time it takes you to make the base and then they're ready to add. I got two pounds of these babies for $2.99, and they're very filling; I've eaten about 20 meals off the package. Here's a link to where you can get them online, but I am sure you can find them cheaper at your local Indian grocery.

The third thing is something that was given to me by [livejournal.com profile] ab3nd's previous roommate, when I complimented him on how good his cooking smelled and asked him about what he was making. He had an extra bag of Swad brand Panch Puran and gave it to me. If you scroll *way* down on the website it looks like it lists for about $2.40. This is the most delicious stuff. I now use a tablespoon or two every time I make food with lentils. I think it also might be good with some types of Chinese food although that's the food experimenter in me talking. I basically would eat it raw if I were not busy cooking it up with vegetables and onions. It contains: whole mustard seeds, whole cumin seeds, coriander/caraway seeds, and some totally unknown-to-me spice which looks kind of like that little part which sits in the middle of a peanut and tastes slightly bitter and slightly green, a little bit like celery. I've...almost remembered what it's called in English as I sit here eating them and trying to remember the word for the taste filling my mouth, but it's a no-go. It might be asafotaedia.


For the masala sauce:
2 Tbsp soy margarine
2 Tbsp olive oil
2 Tbsp brown sugar (unpacked)
1/2 Tbsp better than boullion beef flavored soup concentrate
1 clove garlic
2 cubes frozen basil
3 cubes frozen cilantro (I love me some cilantro)
1/2 can tomato paste (6 oz can)
1 can TJ's tomato sauce (15 oz can, you could also use diced canned tomatoes for a chunkier masala sauce)
1/4 lb frozen green beans (that's about 1/4 bag if you have a 1 lb bag)
1 small pepper (optional)
3 medium-sized carrots
1 medium yellow onion
About 3 Tbsp chana dal masala spice
About 3 Tbsp panch paran
About 1 1/2 cups dry chana dal lentils
Water
Pepper
Salt
2 Tbsp Apple Cider Vinegar
1 tsp ground cinnamon
1 Tbsp ground cumin
1 tsp paprika (optional, didn't do much for flavor)
1 Tbsp (yes) ground dry mustard
3-5 Tbsp nutritional yeast
1 Tbsp ground ginger (probably better with fresh, but you'd want to use less)
1 Tbsp chili powder (optional)
1 Tbsp ground turmeric (added a nice color and flavor boost)
2 tsp curry powder (I used McCormick's. Most of the things in the spice mix I added more of separately, but I didn't have fenugreek, bay leaves, celery seed, or nutmeg, and the curry powder mix had all of those).
5 Tbsp red crushed chili flakes (I have a cold and wanted to kill it dead.)

For the rice:
1 1/2 c white rice of your choice
About 2 c water
Pepper
Salt
1 tsp olive oil (optional)

Prepare rice:
I make the rice in a rice cooker. I find that when I add oil the rice sticks a little less to the pan, which is supposed to be nonstick and mostly is but sometimes isn't perfect. I just add the oil, rice, spices, and water all together, swirl it around a little with the rice paddle, and let it do its thing. If you are making this for a lot of people, you will want to make a lot more rice, but I mostly wanted rice as a kind of side-dish so I made less.

Prepare lentils:
Bring a pot of water to a rolling boil. When ready put in the lentils. Keep up the temperature to a rolling boil. Don't be like me and let the pot boil over as you are chopping carrots, though.

Prepare vegetables (this sounds complex but isn't):
Chop carrots in half lengthwise and then in half widthwise. You want large chunks of carrot but want them all about the same size so they cook evenly. Set aside.
Chop garlic cloves. Set aside.
Chop pepper into small strips. Set aside.
Chop pepper (large chunks work well here).

Prepare sauce:
Heat medium-large pot on stove. When warm add olive oil and margarine together (less fat than just using soy margarine, and less burning and a better taste than just using just oil). Let this warm until it bubbles up a little but isn't brown. Add salt and pepper to taste. Add garlic. Mash the garlic around in there until you have nice garlic-flavored oil. Add the basil and do the same thing. The garlic should be just a tiny bit brown when you add the panch paran. Sautee the whole spices in the flavored oil for about 30 seconds. Now the garlic should be a little more brown. Add the broth concentrate, and stir to dissolve. Add the onion. Stir to coat onion with oil and spices. Do not burn the garlic!

Turn heat down and let onion brown a little. It will sweat out its oniony goodness into the pan, which is what you want. If it starts sticking add a tad more olive oil. Then add the brown sugar. This will carmelize the onion and make the oil smell delicious. When onion is clear and browning on the edges add tomato sauce and a little water. Then add tomato paste, stirring to dissolve the paste into the sauce. You might want to turn the heat up a little here but don't overdo it.

Add the cilantro.

By now the lentils are almost done. When the masala sauce starts to thicken, add a few ladles of sauce from the lentil pot to flavor the sauce, and to thin it down a little bit and stop it from sticking to the pot.

Toss in the remaining spices except the chili flakes and powder. Add the nutritional yeast. Then add the chili flakes and powder to taste.

Turn off the heat to the sauce.

Put in the vegetables:
After you turn off the heat, let the warmth of the sauce cook the vegetables perfectly for you. Just pop a lid on the pot for about 5 minutes and everything will be nice and crisp, plus the sauce will be a perfect consistency. First the carrots and frozen beans, then a minute or two later the pepper. The beans should go in frozen, this ensures they are not overcooked by the end. The carrots should end up cooked but firm, not limp and soggy. You put the pepper in last so it is not overcooked, because peppers are pretty delicate.

Put in the drained lentils, and stir.

At the very end stir in the apple cider vinegar. I find it compliments the tomatoes and cuts the spice a little.

Things I would have added to this dish: a bay leaf. I didn't have any, though.

Serve with rice.

Basically, this was delicious. I had two helpings and there was enough left over to last me until at least Wednesday for lunches. So I would say this serves 4-6 people.

Notes

1/9/11 20:52
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Why I never returned your email:
If you have tried to contact me via email in the last month or so, I did not get your email, as I am locked out of all my gmail accounts due to a long and complicated story involving unrecoverable files on a laptop, a backup which failed, a phone which lost the program I needed to recover my files, and the fact that the gmail guardians of last resort will never be convinced that I am really the owner of any of my email addresses, since I cannot remember facts like the specific date on which I first activated my gmail account lo these many years ago. I am currently in the process of trying to figure out what to do next in terms of email communications, and in terms of my Google Plus identity.

TL;DR: I do not recommend implementing google 2-step authentication.

How to contact me now:
Texting me on my cellphone is best. Calling is ok too. When I get an email again I will post it here.

Where are you living now?:
I have settled into the new house. It is good. There are trees, and a small river nearby, and also the city is nearby. I have gotten used to Boston again. I am kind of starting to enjoy living here again.

What are your roommates like?:
Roommate E. went goth clubbing with me and some friends this Monday. It was exhausting but really fun. She is awesome. Roommate J. is almost never here, and he is sometimes very confusing in how he relates to people, although he is also nice. We are looking for a roommate to replace J.

What is your job like?:
My contract with Nokia was not renewed--I made a decision to pursue a career I liked better instead. As far as that goes I was very happy indeed though....recently though through nothing that could have been predicted my job description and responsibilities were changed at a very rapid pace, twice in two weeks, and that has recently thrown me off balance. I hope to work there for some time to come, as long as I continue to really enjoy the job and manage it well, and continue to learn my own strengths/weaknesses as an employee.

Are you staying in Boston for the forseeable future?:
Probably, unless I apply elsewhere for grad school and get a scholarship. I have found there is a food sciences program at Harvard Extension school and am considering figuring out if the program there seems as good a fit for me as the one at IU did. I am still really interested in getting my masters' degree, but need to make sure I pick the right program and right choice and have the resources at hand to back me up.

What is happening with your family?:
My sister is still awesome, as is my brother-in-law.

I attempted to reconcile with my family, with the help and assistance of my therapist, in late June. It did not go well. My father absented himself for half the session, and my mother told me that she was offended on behalf of the truly abused when I claimed I was abused. Some things that they told me make more sense now--I understand now why my mother hurts when I pull back from physical contact with her. But I also understand why I pull back from physical contact. I wish I had understood both of those things sooner. But I am glad I understand them now.

It took me a while to figure out what to do with my family relations after that. I visited my hometown in August, and had a good time with the rest of my extended family, and mourned a cousin who died, and finally came to realize and articulate to myself about a half-month ago that the best course for me would be to let my parents go, finally, because of the fact that they use friends, family, and loved ones to critique and hurt me. They also used me to hurt my friends, family and loved ones by constantly querying my timelines, decisions, choices, efforts and timetables until I started distrusting my own daily choices and hard-won self-knowledge and confidence in my own joy and the joy I found in my loved ones, family, and friends. I became so distrustful of most of my own desires that I questioned away my joyful, confident, knowledgeable, brave, self-assured, and kind self every time I was asked to make a decision. Because I was going through the insidious self-undermining cycle of mental self-flagellation caused by my abusive relationship with my parents--at a time when my partner and I already needed me to stronger, kinder, more effective, and clearly decisive on a daily basis--eventually every single daily decision I made on my own or was asked to make on behalf of the relationship became a process of desperately struggling to trust and express my own needs and wants, or rejecting my own needs and wants and expressing them as selfish, foolish, petty, or undeserving of being met.

I couldn't see the self-abuse, and didn't really know what was happening at the time, other than to know that I knew profound joy and love and respect when I allowed myself to follow my own heart's deepest promptings, and profoundly hurt when I did not allow myself to follow them. I decided to follow my own heart's deepest and most joyful promptings even though I was scared to let myself trust myself. Then, I was so proud to find that trusting and expressing my own joys again made myself and others happy. Then, I was profoundly terrified to learn that my decision to trust myself had not made my partner feel as happy as she said she was, but had made her feel scared and manipulated instead. In learning that, I felt had finally done what I had been taught that trusting my own decisions would inevitably do--cause a lot of hurt. I was taught that expressing my own needs was selfish. I was taught that trusting myself to love people and be loved was foolish because the people who loved me would always eventually admit that though they loved and cared for me, they ultimately felt trapped and constrained by my love and joy and presence in their lives but had felt obligated to lie to me about it because they couldn't bear to see me hurt when they told me the truth--that I was being selfish when I dared to express my love for them.

I stopped making decisions for a long while after that, and just accepted the decisions of others--whatever would make them happiest or most convenient, I did. I was hurt. That's what I do when I'm hurt.

Later, I realized that the above was the opposite of what actually happened. I realized that I could trust myself and my own decisions, I realized the interpretation of what would happen if I trusted myself was colored and twisted by my abuse and my hurt. I feel really proud and happy I realized that.

In the time between trusting my first decision, and knowing with the sick logic of the abused that I had hurt people by trusting myself and daring to have the audacity to love someone and be loved back, and realizing that that incorrect interpretation of events was formed by the patterns of self-doubt and questioning-abuse that bringing my joyful relationship to my parents had re-started in my own head, there were a few months where I felt a great self-loathing for my own capacity for love and joy.
There were a few months where I really believed that by allowing myself to trust myself, by being proud of my ability to do so, and by being proud of my ability to love others and be loved, I had been utterly selfish, and bore direct responsibility for the breakup. I felt that if I hadn't ever given in to allowing myself to selfishly love and trust her and trust myself to be with her, she would never have felt constrained by my love, never felt she had to lie to me about her perspective on my choices, never had to feel as if she had to tell me she was happy with me when she wasn't, and never needed me to leave. I hurt a lot.

I said a lot of things about myself that weren't kind that I regret. I said a lot of things about others that weren't kind that I regret. I don't think I could have gotten here today without having gone through that period of hating myself for being able to trust in my choices, hating that I could trust that my partners were telling me the truth, and hating myself for loving myself enough to allow myself to express my needs, which finally showed itself up as the foolishness it was all along.

It is good to trust myself. It is good to express my choices. It is good to love and be loved. What wasn't good was letting my self-confidence get undermined by my parents' insidious questioning of all my choices, such that I myself began questioning those things and hurt myself and the people I loved.

I can't think of a way to have a relationship with my parents that won't ultimately end in their raising objections and tiny undermining critiquing questions about everything I do, am, want to be, or who or what I love. I can't talk with them without talking about those things. They don't have the willpower to resist getting me to question every decision I make, and I believe they don't fully understand what they are doing. I don't have the ability, even after a decade of being on my own and learning--and being taught--to love myself and others better and better, to fully evade the abuse pattern. I don't know if any amount of self-love and self-confidence would ever be enough, because the more I have of it the more they use it as a weapon to convince me I am selfish and ungrateful, and turn me against my own best self. So, I am not talking to them any more.

I should have cut off relations with them fully last summer for my own health, but I had to be sure that I was making a decision that was good for me and not just good for my relationships--if it had been good for my relationships but bad for me it would ultimately have been a bad decision for my relationships as well.

TL;DR: I am cutting off relationships with my parents: the better I get, the more they use it against me and the people I love. They use the love I have for others to critique and hurt me and get me to doubt myself, and they use the love others have for me to critique and hurt others and get them to doubt themselves through my doubt. They have even done it to themselves, with their own love. This is unacceptable. They cannot stop. The better I get, the more ammo I give them. This is unfortunate, but I am not even really sad about it anymore; it's been more than a year coming slowly to this decision, since even mid 2009 I think, at the engagement party my parents threw for us: they didn't care if I or my partner wanted it. They were throwing it for themselves in a very real sense. I started to try and convince myself that they were doing it for me and my partner because I wanted to convince myself of that so badly, and I succeeded. When they did not call her when I was sick the summer of 2010, I tried to convince myself that it was because I had never done a good job of showing my family what I loved about her, because I so badly didn't want to admit that they would never respect me and the choices I made in my life, and I succeeded. From there, a whole host of doubts flowed and paralyzed my every move. No more.

I feel a vast sense of relief and the beginnings of a new life.

How is your health?:
Generally pretty ok, though often I have to go off antidepressants as I do not have enough money to pay for my psych services out of pocket and they do not take the state healthcare plan (no health insurance at job). However, I am still getting antidepressants and going to counseling when I can afford it, and enjoy it. It has been really helpful. I got a new doctor early this spring. I have not yet visited her; when I do for my yearly October visit I plan on introducing myself and asking for new hormone level tests, as well as discussing the fact that my psych medication noticeably interacts with my PMS in somewhat confusing ways. I also plan on asking for an allergy referral and a sleep study, as I have been having problems with my sleep cycle for years now and might finally have the resources to get help for myself.

I am tentatively trying out going vegetarian for health reasons, as I suspect I might have the beginnings of a latex-fruit reactivity problem. I am also putting it off for health reasons, as I know I have a lactose intolerance that makes me ill and uncomfortable for days at a time. I am also putting it off for ethical reasons, as I am really uncomfortable eating the commercially-produced milk, cheese and eggs that appear in so many processed food products now.

What have you been doing?:
Reading, writing, and healing. The fey novel is going to be about abuse, recovery, and its complexities: I cried when I realized that. I have also been hiking and swimming a lot. There is a lake about a mile from my house in one direction. There is a bookstore about a mile in the other direction. Life is, generally, good.

How are your pets?:
Tokai is finally eating on her own again. I am thrilled. She is a mighty huntress! Oolong is herself. She is adorable and fluffy and somewhat dopey. She's also 3 next month.
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So, I have a secret: I love jerky. It's no good though, full of disgusting meat ends and preservatives. I have been looking for primal vegan jerky in the Boston area since the vegan food fest last fall, and now I've found the seitan flavor--at the usually vegan-food-free wasteland of the Porter Square MBTA kiosk.

Cons: a little bit expensive, around a dollar a stick. Only one flavor, seitan, is available--I want to try mushroom! A little salty.

Pros: juicy, great texture, delicious flavor. Satisfies jerky craving. Has tons of protein, which I need in the morning. Flat pack fits in bag for biking, etc.

http://www.primalspiritfoods.com/products.php

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I really like asparagus. But the kind of asparagus you usually get at any store usually has, well...very tough stems. It's not like eating asparagus: it's like eating a branch. Even vegans don't want that. So, since I cannot miraculously get good asparagus around here, and I have enough roughage in my diet with the daily oatmeal, I thought to try Trader Joe's frozen asparagus.

I used it in my previously mentioned Bento box, in a recipe that just covers the asparagus with the bare minimum of deliciousness (lemon, olive oil, salt, and pepper) and then leaves it to cook in the oven for a bit. The asparagus really is the star of this dish; it needs to be tender and juicy.

I put the entirely frozen asparagus right into the lemon juice mix and waited. It came out great! The asparagus is small enough to cook tender all the way through without getting too mushy, and there is no woody or bitter aftertaste. There is not a *ton* of asparagus in the package, but asparagus is such a delicious and assertive vegetable that you generally don't need more than 2-4 spears of asparagus per person (on risotto, or pasta, or what-have you).

The only drawback to its being frozen is that sometimes the very tips of the heads break off. But that's ok: they're still delicious. It is a little cheaper than regular asparagus, too, which is good. I hope TJ's carries it all year round.
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- Gardening!
Gardening is great. I have half of the garden in the back. The roses and the irises are blooming, and in my little garden I have planted: about 6 tiny little lettuces, which I hope will grow; 1 fennel plant which was already sprouting; 5 wild onions and 5 regular onions; 1 garlic which sprouted right in the bag from TJ's and is now growing happily; two strawberry plants which will produce next year and not this year; and now 2 zucchini plants and 6 chili pepper plants I bought from the farmers' market today.

- Cooking!
Cooking is also great. I am mostly cooking on weekends or on the evenings of my days off, and making a lot so I can take it to work in my bento box. Stuff I've made lately: Cold pasta salad with lemon asparagus with garlic; romaine lettuce salad with apples and candied chestnuts and cilantro vegan dressing; little fake pizzas with capers and olives and Daiya cheese on a whole wheat tortilla, delicious to eat cold;
vegan chocolate mousse (fantastic when frozen, use an immersion blender and your life will be easier); and now I am making a quick rhubarb compote with farmers' market rhubarb.

But by far my favorite is My Grandma's Chicken Tofu & Dumplings!



Here is the vegan-ized recipe from my grandma. <3

Since it uses tofu rather than chicken, instead of taking hours to cook (the original recipe calls for 1 hr 30 min of chicken cooking time before you do anything else), it takes about 45m-60 m total, not counting cooling time. This is an excellent recipe to use up whatever vegetables are left in your refrigerator. Warning: the dumplings expand. Next time I make this I am planning on using half the dumpling mix and freezing the rest.

This is super-hearty; great for winter but also good eaten cold (IMO). You may want a really big soup pot/casserole. My 4-quart enameled casserole dish barely held all of this stuff; I think the only reason the lid did not fly off was because it was cast iron.

This freezes well and serves 4-6 people.

What you need:
1 pack firm tofu
3 to 4 c vegetable broth
thyme to taste
1 bay leaf
parsley to taste
salt
other spices to taste (I think I used rosemary, sage, and a little ground mustard)
carrot, sliced
onion, chopped roughly (optional)
garlic, chopped
celery, chopped roughly
potatoes, chopped (optional. I left these out because the dumplings are really hearty, and I am glad I did).
about 1/3 c Frozen or fresh peas (if using peas of whatever type, put them in last on top of the dumplings just before you steam them. It will cook them perfectly without making them mushy).
1 Tbsp olive oil
1 to 1/2 c chopped mushrooms (optional, but I found it did good things for the broth)

Dumplings
2 c all purpose flour
3 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt (this salt really only interacts with the baking powder)
2 Tbsp cold vegan margarine or vegan shortening
1 c cold soy or almond milk (almond milk makes the dumplings sweeter)
salt/pepper to taste (optional)


Dice tofu into 1 in. squares. Saute tofu in pan with olive oil, garlic, and onions. When it is brown and crispy on the outside but still chewy on the inside, remove from heat.

In a large covered casserole dish or large stock pot, put broth, mushrooms, and all remaining vegetables (except peas). Add spices, salt and pepper. Let simmer until vegetables are slightly less than tender and still very bright (about 20m). After 20 min, add the onions, garlic and tofu. Remove pot from heat after adding these items. (This keeps the tofu from dissolving into nothingness, but stops it from getting cold, and also the garlic and onion have time to cook a little more into the soup since the soup is still warm).

While the soup is simmering make the dumplings:
Sift together flour, salt, and baking powder.
Cut in cold shortening or margarine using knives, pastry cutter/blender, or food processor.
Gradually add cold soy/almond milk. Mix until smooth (this will have the consistency of bread dough). (All this stuff is cold so the dumplings mix well and hold together better).

Drop dumpling dough by tiny tablespoon-fulls into soup. Sort of press the dumplings down into the soup so they do not all stick together at the top, though you want some at the top. At this time add the peas on top of the top layer of dumplings if you are using peas.

Then cover the pot tightly, put the pot back onto the stove, and simmer 10-12 m without removing the lid until the dumplings are all floating to the top and the vegetables are tender but still bright. (The entirely-in-soup dumplings will get chewy, the top dumplings will steam on the top and absorb the soup on the bottom and form a delicious crust of deliciousness).

You are left with only a little bit of broth at the end; the dumplings absorb the soup to turn everything into a light gravy-like coating. So if you don't like soup, don't worry: there is only about a tablespoon of soup that doesn't turn automatically into gravy deliciousness.

Enjoy!
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I've been doing fewer vegan food reviews lately because:
1.) Last week the motherboard on my laptop died and my laptop is Totally Dead. I spent about a day this weekend trying to do an emergency rescue, but it's no good.
2.) It's hard to write these on my cellphone, as the wifi on the commuter rail is sketchy at best.
3.) I've got a two hour commute at least two days a week that has me leaving the house at 7:45 am and not getting back until 8 or 9 at night.
4.) Did you know that I don't sweat, even when the temps in my apartment reach over 90? I didn't either, but I've been trying to do research to figure out why.

However, this doesn't mean I haven't been cooking. This week, I did vegan chocolate mousse, a Big Vat of Hummus, my Famous Chocolate Almond Raisin Banana Bread to bring for my coworkers tomorrow, and my newest bento for tomorrow's lunch features the Tahini-Miso dressing from the Veganomicon (with added pepper, salt, lemon juice, and some minced garlic).

So, this is a review of Trader Joe's Tahini Sauce. It's new in the Trader Joe's stores in MA. I thought they had Tahini Paste previously, but I guess not.

Mostly, I find straight-up Tahini Paste to be really strong. I like sesame, but sometimes the paste is just too much of a good thing. That's why I like Trader Joe's tahini sauce. It's light, delicate, and almost whipped; less a "paste" than a "sauce," like the tin says. It says, "sesame." It does not say, "SESAME the consistency of PEANUT BUTTER!" You get a little 8-oz tub, which if you're me about 2/3rds of it goes into about 3 cups' worth of finished hummus, and there's about 1/4 c left over.

Note: It does not *say* it's vegan, but the ingredients are: tahini (sesame seed sauce), lemon juice, citric acid, water, garlic, and salt, so if it's not I'd be surprised.

I think it's the lemon and garlic that really cut and complement the flavor of the sesame, for me. This is by far my #1 tahini paste...now only if I can get TJ's to carry it year-round instead of just stocking it as some kind of summer thing.
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Here is a little instructional recipe comic about how to Make the food with Eggs in a Hole in Toast, which I don't even eat.



Why was I so interested in this dish? Well, here is a spreadsheet on what to call it. There are at least 62 different names that I found. Is there any other food with this many accepted variations on the name? I wonder why there are so many. Maybe it is a regional linguistic difference, like the coke/pepsi thing.

I had originally hoped to make a Venn Diagram of the entire thing, before I realized that:
a.) Open Office cannot generate Venn Diagrams
b.) This spreadsheet would make an interesting problem in the current mathematical limits of Venn diagramming.

If you are a computer scientist or a linguist and would like to analyze this data, please do so. Or, if you are an artist who wants to give it a go. I think that it would make an interesting problem in the limits of Venn diagramming.

Names that statistically should occur but don't exist include:
One-Eyed Hobo
One-Eyed Pirate (I cannot believe this combination does not exist)
Pirate's Eggs
Sun & Moon (Pretty obvious, with the round things...)
Sunny Toasts
Sun's Eye
Sun in the Hole
Sun in a Window (or this one)
Toad in a Blanket
Baby in a Basket
Baby in a Nest
Baby in a Blanket (or this one...why is the Baby in a Hole, for God's sake, instead of a basket or nest or blanket?)
Toasty Eggs (The reversal is obvious)
Hen's Eye
Chick's Eyes (Maybe these are too gross for some people, but why is a Camel's Eye a lot better?)
Gaslight Windows (Steampunk Brunches Everywhere may adopt this term).
Chicks in a Hole
Chicks in the Egg (Seriously?)
Hen on a Nest (Seriously, seriously?)
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[livejournal.com profile] ab3nd and I are making Dandelion wine this spring. This is an ongoing series of posts.

He and I spent about 3 hours picking dandelions at a park on Tuesday, and then spent another hour cutting off most of the bitter greens, and then another hour boiling them in a big pot on the stove. It was time-consuming; if we ever do anything like this again then we should definitely make it a weekend, rather than an overnight, project.

Then, according to the recipe, the pot of boiled dandelion heads sat for two days with a twice-daily stirring. On Thursday evening, I spent another hour peeling the rind off of two lemons and an orange, and juicing them by hand since we don't have a hand juicer here, and sterilizing the inside of the bucket with some bleach and water.

I was a little worried: unboiled, the pot of dandelions smelled like bitter greens; but when boiled again let out that lovely aroma of almost-honey. I added the rind, boiled for another hour, added the citrus juices and sugar, and let it cool. I'm glad I started to do that around 4, because it took until about 10 at night for the vat-o-sugar to cool off enough to put the yeast in, even with stirring periodically. Around 10 pm I dumped the whole thing in the big bucket, stirred the yeast in, put the lid and the vent on, and sat the whole thing in the pantry closet to sit until Sunday.

Then I spent an hour designing a wine label in gimp. I don't know if we will decide to use this, but I really like it.

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[livejournal.com profile] ab3nd and I are making Dandelion wine this spring, because for once I finally thought of it before the dandelions were all gone, and [livejournal.com profile] ab3nd has the right equipment already so there wasn't a huge outlay for, say, specialty labglass, so if it all goes wrong then I won't have started an expensive new hobby only to find out I don't actually like it.

We are using the first recipe on this winemaking website. Most of the recipes we found on the internet when doing research involved Welch's Grape Juice Concentrate; this was unacceptable to me. I wanted my wine to taste like dandelions and maybe grass, not be reminiscent of Communion and full of reconstituted grapes and corn syrup...even if I wanted my wine to taste like it was made with grapes, I would make wine from grapes.

Stuff we had to get at the beer store:
- 1 three-gallon bucket with spigot on top
- 1 packet wine yeast. I chose "Vintner's Harvest" brand SN9, Saccharomyes bayanus, because it claimed it was good for flower based wines and also was much less delicate than the other type of yeast recommended for flower wines, which had a special note about how it was kind of finicky and needed TLC.

The local beermaking store also had a load of weird spices and cooking ingredients mostly last seen in things like the medieval cookbook I have--like juniper berries, dried rosehips, candy sugar in both brown and white varieties, oak pieces, and cacao seeds. If I need really weird spices, now I know where to go. Unfortunately, the helpful guy at the store told me that they don't have fresh yeast suitable for bread making, so my search continues for fresh bread yeast in the Boston area. They also had a half-gallon of agave syrup for 13.00, so I know where I am getting my agave syrup from now on. :)

Yeah. More pictures soon.
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Trader Joe's Organic Low-Sodium Vegetable Broth was not the broth I wanted. I generally prefer the "better than broth bullion" vegan beef or chicken flavor broth concentrate, but the last time that I went shopping I couldn't find it anywhere (Shaw's was out, it seemed), so I just got this broth-in-a box. I prefer paying for the concentrate because otherwise you are really paying for a lot of water with flavoring, but I figured I should review this anyway.

You get 1 qt of broth. It's fat-free, low-cal, and gluten free. It also has *way* less sodium than their normal vegetable broth, at only 6% sodium. Some nutrients, but not enough to rave about. I think I picked up the organic kind without really noticing; I don't even know if TJ's carries non-organic vegetable broth or what it tastes like.

Mostly, it's water with a lot of vegetable juices. It tastes vaguely sweet because of the carrot juices they put in. If you're like me and love the taste of celery but hate the texture, you will like this broth, because you can really taste the fact that celery is the third broth on the list. Unfortunately, it does have tomatoes and onions in it, so this is no good for people who are sensitive to those vegetables. It is also slightly seasoned, but not overwhelmingly so.

It has recipe suggestions, like "omit oil and use broth instead," in the back. This does in fact contain a slight bit of olive oil, so it is a little bit oily--you don't need to add a lot of extra oil.

How else does it taste? Mostly of celery, with a slight hint of tomato and onion, sweetness from the carrots, and a little bit of parsley flavor. There is a slight olive oil aftertaste, and it has a nice feel in your mouth. I will probably use the rest of it to make miso soup; it's light and tasty without being overwhelmingly like "I'M BROTH!!" which is an effect you can sometimes get with broth concentrate pastes, or non-low-sodium broths, which I sometimes find too salty.

The only drawbacks are that you are essentially, again, paying for flavored water, and you have to use it up within 10 days after you open the box. Thankfully (or maybe not), if you are making a good deal of food, 1 box of broth will not last you too long (I used about 6/8ths of the box in the cheesy green bean couscous casserole, but that is an entire medium-sized casserole dish full of food and should last for several days).
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I wanted the "classic" mushroom Thanksgiving-type green bean casserole with the crunchy onions on top, but I have no soymilk.

Ingredients:
- 1 lb bag frozen French-cut green beans (for faster cooking)
- 1 1/2 c nutritional yeast
- 1/2 tbsp ground mustard
- 1/2 tbsp paprika (optional)
- 1/2 tbsp chili powder (optional)
- olive oil
- 2 small white boiling onions or 1/2 small regular onion, sliced thinly
- 1-2 lg cloves garlic
- 1 c "pearl" or Israeli couscous (the kind with the larger grains)
- about 1 c dried oyster mushrooms
- 2-3 slices stale bread, cubed into croûton size (I used some stale whole wheat raisin bread for a sweet flavor)
- salt
- white pepper
- black pepper
- about 3 c vegetable broth (I used low-sodium and it worked out fine)

Equipment: covered casserole dish, medium-sized regular pot with lid, spatula or spoon

Preheat oven to 400 deg. F.

Cover bottom of pot with thin layer of olive oil, salt, white pepper. Turn on heat. When oil is heated up, add garlic. Stir until garlic is fragrant/browning lightly. Add onion. Stir. When onion is transparent and soft, add couscous. Stir to coat in oil. The couscous should become slightly transparent and then slightly tan and smell a little nutty.

Add about half the broth. Stir. Wait a few minutes for the couscous to start to become plump. Then add the spices, black pepper, and more salt and white pepper if you want. Add the mushrooms. Wait for the mushrooms to start absorbing the liquid; you may want to put the lid on the pot for a minute or two at this point.

Add the nutritional yeast, slowly so it doesn't clump up. Stir constantly. The liquid should thicken; if it gets too thick add half the remaining broth. You don't want it too sauce-like just yet, but it shouldn't be thin and watery either. This is a good time to test and add any other spices you might want.

Let the mushrooms and couscous absorb the rest of the liquid already in the pot, and simmer about 2-3 minutes. At this point your sauce should start looking more cheesy, but before it congeals completely turn the heat down.

Coat the inside of the casserole dish lightly with cooking spray. Dump the entire bag of frozen green beans into it.

Pour the warm cheese/mushroom/couscous sauce over the frozen green beans. With a spoon or spatula, make little dents or holes in the green beans for the sauce to flow into. The goal is not to mix it thoroughly, but have pockets of sauce in the beans while still leaving most of the sauce on top to form a kind of crust.

Put the bread cubes on top of the whole thing. Drizzle the remaining broth over the bread cubes. Ideally the bottom of the bread cubes should start absorbing the sauce, and the top of the bread cubes should be drier and form a little crust, kind of like a bread pudding.

Put the lid on the casserole, and pop the whole thing into the oven for 25 m or until browned on top. You can leave the lid off for the last few minutes to get the crust crispier if you want, since leaving the lid on will steam the bread slightly.

This will need salt and pepper to taste when it is out of the oven and heading toward your gaping vegan maw. I didn't want to put too much salt in the recipe as I was making it because you can always add salt later, but can't take it out if you oversalt during cooking.

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Today, I woke up and wanted something sweet, but not too sweet, for breakfast. Thankfully, I had a can of sweetened red adzuki beans from Morinaga!

These are quite nice--sort of half-beans, half sweet red-bean paste--and aren't too sweet and don't have that metallic aftertaste that red beans in a can sometimes get. They're nicely sweet, with that lingering bean flavor. Try and find them at your local asian market, if you can; it will probably be cheaper than ordering them online.They are also browner (darker and less red) than shown on the can, so if some reason you are using these beans for fancy food, and want a really red color for contrast, you may want to go with straight-up red bean paste. The word I would use to describe them is "toothsome"--much less straight-up mushy than plain red bean paste, but less "wow, these are really just beans!" than straight-up sweetened unmashed red beans.

There's a lot per can, as well, so if you aren't planning on using a lot of red bean paste right away, you can put it in the fridge and use it in...I dunno, mochi, or over some ice cream or something.

Oh my gosh, I can't stop eating these right off the spoon... *sweatdrop*

I'm making ohagi (rice and adzuki bean balls) from Lesley Downer's "Japanese Vegetarian Cooking" for breakfast. Kind of decadent, maybe, but so tasty.

The servings are a little high in calories, but have practially no far, and have 27% of your dietary fiber, and 60% of your daily vitamin C. Granted, they also have 47 g of sugar...but you probably won't lick it off the spoon the way I am.
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I am eating Thai tonight with [livejournal.com profile] thomasyan, [livejournal.com profile] doma, and a friend of thomas'. We decided on Thai food last week, and currently heating are:

1.) Plain white rice
2.) A large pot of Thai Mango Curry, sans lemongrass since I couldn't find it (you can substitute pineapple if you are not a mango person)
3.) A plate of somewhat overdone but really delicious coconut dessert crepes from The 30 minute Thai Vegetarian Cookbook, substituting flax seeds for eggs.
4.) 1 and 1/2 cups of tamarind drink concentrate, homemade, which will probably eventually get drizzled all over the crepes and added to water to make a drink.

I was trying to find tamarind paste, but only found Badia tamarind pods, so I bought those at the store instead. You have to peel them and shell them, but they taste amazing. I added about 5 or 6 peeled pods to 1/2 c vinegar and 1/3 c packed brown sugar, boiled that down for about 15 min until it was a syrupy paste, strained out the seeds with a colander, then put 2 Tbsp sugar, 2 c water, and the tamarind paste back into the pot and boiled it more until all the ingredients combined, about another 15 min. It's really good, and apparently tamarind is the sweet/sour flavor my Thai and Mexican cooking has been lacking. It made me think of going to San Francisco and getting burritos in the Mission District with [livejournal.com profile] rax. You can also save the concentrate in the refrigerator for up to two months and just add it to stuff.

The pods were only $1.89 at the supermarket, and I still hav 5 or 6 left in the bag, so they're a really good value. A little bit of work to prepare, but honestly it's no worse than making rice.
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I'll admit it: these were an impulse buy.

So, "classic vanilla flavor" Dandies vegan marshmallows.

There's a lot of them to a package, which is great. They're kosher and gluten-free. They are made on vegan equipment in a peanut/nut free facility. This is a fancy way of saying that they're pure spun sugar puffs, but they're good-for-you pure lumps of spun sugar puffs.

I probably shouldn't have put them in the refrigerator after I got home from the store, but honestly I wasn't thinking very hard. They kind of gelled up and got a little chewy. This meant they were better for eating out of the bag (I would never do that!) but it made them less pillowy and fluffy (I usually don't put these in the refrigerator).

As a whole, I think that these are good vegan commercial marshmallows. They are not very vanilla-y, and personally I prefer the texture of Sweet & Sara vegan marshmallows, but the price of these is way cheaper for more hot-chocolately-goodness. A little chewier than regular marshmallows, but what you're going for is something to drop in your cocoa or make rice krispy treats with. At this price, it is not very likely that you are going to just be stuffing the whole package in your face to do the world's most expensive version of "chubby bunny" at vegetarian summer camp. ...Though it is possible, and one wonders if that's Chicago Soydairy's ulterior purpose in not providing a resealable/recloseable bag. It's so much easier to eat just one more, or make the entire bag into rice treats, when the bag is sitting there, open, temptingly...but then if you don't, they kind of go stale all at once. I wish they'd add a zipper-lock.

I have never tried these over a campfire, and I have never tried these on s'mores (I always end up getting the individual ingredients for s'mores at two different stores, and then eating either the marshmallows or graham crackers without buying vegan chips. :(
But that's probably what the Dandies people want me to do.
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Hey there, friend who is trying to convince me that soy is bad for you! I appreciate that you have been kind of on a personal health kick lately, but I already know that soy is not a miracle food. I know it has some problematic estrogens, and have been slowly cutting back on it because I don't think that's good for me. I know that it's generally pretty high in fat. I know that you shouldn't base a diet around it.

Guess what: I'm not! But my diet is something I really shouldn't have to defend to anybody. Any food is gonna have its problems, large or small, and its detractors, and its scientists with agendas. I've seen this happen with foods from grapefruit to milk--somebody writes an article based on extensive lab testing and FDA approval saying "x is healthy," and then a year or decade later there's a book on Oprah or a peer-reviewed article saying "x is gonna kill you!" I gave up trying to track it all long ago, because it was impossible.

I decided to take my body's own advice, and go vegan. It's worked great for me. It's the best diet I've ever been on, in terms of my health. If no soy works for you, that's great. You should eat what you like. And I will eat what I like. But I do not appreciate hearing, "you shouldn't eat that thing you like," especially not from a friend.

Reading a book about how soy is horrible is not going to make me change my mind about soy, when my own body was telling me to give up cheese and milk, and I (stubborn) kept at it, and eventually only stopped when I got very sick indeed.

You also probably didn't have much of a way of knowing this, because I don't generally talk about it, but I have had a lot of people criticize my eating habits--both when I was younger, and today. When I went vegan, it took me a year and a half to convince my mother that I was not going to waste away and to demonstrate to my father that what I was eating actually tasted good. When I was younger, I spent an entire year vegetarian. and having my food supply and choices passively-aggressively managed by my mother. My aunt has suggested that I change my grammar structure at family parties so that my extended family will be more comfortable with the fact that I choose to eat how I choose to eat.

Even when my parents are not criticizing my eating habits and choices specifically, or asking me to "just try a little meat," they have spent years generally criticizing my eating habits in terms of everything I ate or didn't eat, every time I ate, on top of the vegetarian and vegan stuff. I have pushed away from the table uncomfortably full, only to have my mother complain that I didn't take seconds, and then an hour later get a lecture on "my health." It feels like they may have spent more total time criticizing me at all points of my life about whatever I was eating than I actually did learning that it was ok to eat what I wanted, finding my own food style as an adult, and learning how to enjoy cooking and (mostly) eating without guilt or stress. That project took me several years.

I really think adults shouldn't criticize each other's food choices. That may sound weird coming from a vegan, since in a lot of ways the way I eat really seems like I'm doing it to stick it to the man. A lot of vegans do that actively and deliberately, and are angry about it.

I will admit that I do stick it to the man a bit, simply by choosing to consume or not consume various products, and talking about why and how sometimes. And I will admit I'm pretty angry about the ill-treatment of workers and animals in factory farms. But if making my own food choices consciously and enjoying what I eat and talking sometimes about why I eat the way I do is sticking it to the man, then everybody who's ever chosen what they will or will not personally consume or talked about why is "sticking it to the man" in the exact same way, if not along the same axis that I am.

There's a lot of people who say, "I hate vegans/vegetarians because I feel like they make me feel bad about the food I eat." I think that's because a lot of veg*ns really do feel strongly about stuff like factory farming, so any discussion of veg*ns it comes off as "you shouldn't eat this thing you like because it's awful!" But please keep in mind that veg*ns have a tiny little corner of the huge socio-political machinery set up in our culture to make other people feel bad or good about their food choices and consumption.

Every day, this machinery tells me and everyone around me that I'm already "supposed" to feel bad about eating the way I do because talking about my food choices around people who have chosen other choices for themselves is rude and it's my own fault if I talk about what I do; I should expect that it will make people angry at me and my food choices. Or, alternately, this machinery tells me and everyone around me that I must be eating really disgusting and unhealthy and nutritionally incomplete foods, so I must be crazy for wanting to set up my food choices the way I have, but no one else should make these food choices because they're just not wholesome in some way.

So if you--any of you, or even all of you--feel like you really want to share some food information with me, I'd prefer that you say something like, "I'm not eating x right now [ENTIRELY optional short explanation: because I hate it/it's bad for me/I'm trying to be healthier, etc.], but here's what I am enjoying and here's what I cooked last week."

That doesn't come off as "I think you shouldn't eat this food because I have been convinced that it's absolutely awful to do so!" It comes off as what is is: "I have made this food choice for these reasons, and here's how it's affected me and what I've enjoyed eating instead." That's *way* more likely to make me interested in and sympathetic to your food choices, even if I choose not to share them myself--because I know I'm not gonna get a lecture about how I am wrong; I just get to find out what you're all excited about and might get excited about it too.

That mutual reciprocal joy in happy sharing and learning more about the awesome person in question is the kernel of all good relationships, whether you're talking about food or friendship or anything else. That's what makes me happy to be friends with you, all of you. That's what makes me happy to share who I am with you, all of you. (It's also awesome when even if you and your friends don't hit perfection and joy all the time, you're honest enough with yourself and each other to admit that you still want to aim for it together, and try again with a different plan, after admitting the first one missed.)

Really, I just want to find out what makes the people I care about happy, and try and make the people I care about happy, because making those people happy makes me happy in a way that's separate from, but related to, their happiness. I bet you do, too, friends. It's harder to do that when the people I care about are telling me how unhappy I should be because the choices that I made to make myself happy--including making the choice to make myself happy by making them happy--shouldn't make me happy as they do, and I'm wrong for finding happiness in the things that I find happiness in, and I need to make different choices, and then I'll be happy. Really, I just want to be happy, and I choose my path so that I will be happy. Making my friends happy is an altruistic way of going about making me happy, which also benefits you, my friend. I really like it, so I do it a lot, partly because I can often combine it with non-altruistic or less altruistic ways of making myself happy, like cooking (sharing cooking with friends), or writing poetry (talking about something I've written), or sex (well, it usually takes at least two people, though not all the time). Don't worry that I'm spending all my happiness on you, and ignoring my own needs, because I find that what I need is that balance in the combination of the less altruistic task and the more altruistic ability to share the task. And I find that balance in different ways, once I finally got the hang of it--performing the task directly with someone is one way; discussing the end-result of it is another; going away to be entirely alone for a while and then listening to someone else talk about their own tasks is another. Most of my choices are a mix of the altruistic and the more selfish.

Like, for example, talking about my personal food choices. :)

And you thought this was gonna be a vegan ranting about how tofu was perfect! ;)

[Edit: Yup, this post was up for like five minutes yesterday night. It wasn't supposed to post until this morning, but LJ's date-setting feature never works right whenever I try to post in the future. I wanted people to see the trans rights stuff first, so I just hid this post until now.]
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I have now created a "memories" category, called "Vegan Food Review," to collect all my upcoming Vegan Food Reviews in one convenient place! Yay. This seems super-popular with people!
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Assi Brand Black Bean Soymilk with Calcium!

This is awesome stuff. I got it at the local Korean grocery. When I asked if they had soymilk, they showed me a little mini juice-box for a dollar. "Anything bigger?" I asked. "No," he said, and then the lightbulb went on. He gestured to a table, where an entire case of the soymilk juice boxes was sitting there. "Ten dollars," he said. I did a quick count. There were 24 little soy juice boxes. That was 41 cents per serving of soymilk. I was pretty happy, plus you can just drop them in your Giant Red Bag of Doom and go.

It is black bean soymilk, which does not mean it is made with black soy beans, but rather means it is regular soymilk made with black sesame seeds. This means it is slightly sweeter and less "beany" than regular soymilk. It also means it is slightly purple-grey in color, like cereal milk in which the purple froot loops have sat for just a bit too long. The added calcium makes it smooth and also good for vegans. It also contains corn oil, which is not that great, but it's really tasty, and really cheap, and you can cut the lip of the container off for pouring the soymilk over cereal in the morning.

Delicious, nutritious, and cheap.

You may or may not be able to buy it direct from the manufacturer's website, but maybe you can find where you can get it in your area. Also, apparently, it comes in strawberry, chocolate, and banana flavors as well. Maybe the nice guy at the Korean grocery will order me another case specially in chocolate...
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- I have read 2 John Brunner novels in the past two days, The Shockwave Rider and Players at the Game of People. I did not like Players. Its allegory was way too heavy-handed, and its main female characters served to a.)be love interests for the viewpoint character and b.)act as a foil to the viewpoint character and show him the allegory wasn't what he thought it was. I didn't even find the premise clever beyond chapter three. I think this would have been way, way better as a short story. The novel was also racist (oh, John Brunner and your problematics!) I liked The Shockwave Rider, although I have a hard time remembering the title, since there are really no shockwaves or riding in the entire book (the title is a reference to the book that inspired it, Future Shock, which makes a lot of sense. It's just that I've never read Future Shock and keep forgetting its title because of that). I enjoy books with strong and intelligent women who love their boyfriends but don't take shit from their boyfriends, tame genetically-engineered mountain lions, narrow disasters averted by last-minute computer hacking, cool architecture, and men and people in general who listen to their consciences even when that decision is really pretty risky. Though a lot of the technology in this book is outdated (tape backups? Punch cards?) a lot of it isn't (pocket videophones? Wall-to-wall 3-D TVs?) and the ways in which the technology is *used* (to disrupt corrupt governments by strategically leaking classified government documents wikileaks style, to smuggle people out of secret detention facilities that are not supposed to exist, to dupe credulous parishioners out of money to line the pockets of unscrupulous priests, to give the police easy access to the movements of everyday citizens, to create new bio-technologies that show great technological promise for humanity but may also cross ethical and moral boundaries) is cutting-edge stuff.

- I made vegan vodka tomato pasta. It's good.

- Oolong has been exploring the outside back porch, which has a tall wood railing. She keeps trying to sneak out between the slats, though. I have to try her harness again, because she's so stupid she'll go right through and so uncoordinated that I'm kind of afraid she might fall off the porch down to the ground 2 stories below.

- I cry a lot in the shower, due to historical problems finding any truly private spaces indoors as a child. Now I have apparently associated showering with sadness, to the point where every single time in the past week that I have showered, I have cried for at least fifteen minutes afterward, often for no good reason, sometimes because I came to an important realization in the shower. It's annoying. But I am also due to get my period. More about this below.

- Tokai shed yesterday. Go, Tokai!

- My cousin in NYC is a fabric buyer for a place that sells huge amounts of fabrics to places that make clothes and then sell the resulting clothes to mass-market department stores across the US. I didn't know this, but when I found out, I forwarded her an article I'd read back in Feb. about fabrics and their representations of people of color. I implied there was a huge market in this stuff, especially for kids' clothes. Hopefully she and her employer will take the hint and make a load of money, and make a lot of kids and their parents really happy, by giving people awesome clothes featuring some people who might not all be white! :)

- I have resumed conversations with my parents, but think I will end them soonish. This will make visiting my family in NY in July difficult, since I want to see my sister and Jan and apparently Jan's sister and her boyfriend, but don't really want to interact with my parents much. However, when my father said I was sounding happier on the phone, I realized he just couldn't distinguish between my actual genuine happiness and my talking to him about random things because I felt it was my duty as his daughter. Granted, possibly this is also my problem, but since my mother also did not bring up the 20-minute conversation I had with her last week about why I had stopped talking to them for six months and needed to talk to them seriously about fixing some problems I had interacting with them, problems they were largely causing, I don't think that my conversations with them will be going anywhere near Genuine Happinessville, despite my trying to steer the metaphorical car in that direction, and I'd rather have no relationship at all with my parents than one that I feel is false on its face, when it could be so much more, but they just aren't interested in bringing up things that are hard for them to talk about or finding serious solutions for the problems they have with me and I with them, because they might get upset and need to cry or be angry for a while, at themselves or me or both, and showing weakness and asking for help to fix their relationship with me isn't ok, it's just easier to tell themselves they have a crazy and disrespectful daughter who they won't ever understand.

possible physical TMI warning (PMS), which also contains a recommendation for a Droid app
- I have installed the most-awesome ever application on my new android phone (all the features of the old sidekick, for the same amount of money a month, and backed by a company whose data servers probably won't go out of business anytime soon, like the Sidekick data people did constantly? Yay!) It is not the touch keyboard that lets me type almost as fast as I can read, which is still pretty cool. It is a thingy called OvuView, which is free, and lets you track your period. It also lets you track variables, such as "lots of cramps," or "mild headache," or "temperature," or "moodiness," or "appetite" or "sleeplessness." It also tells me when my period is probably going to be. Since I am *notoriously* bad at tracking this myself, to my detriment and the detriment of everyone around me, this app pings me every night and makes me enter as much or as little data as I want to enter. It's fantastic. Now I *know* that if I eat a half a pack of tofu during a protein craving, can't sleep, and cry for an hour, I can track it and see if there's a pattern instead of wondering why I feel like shit and want to sleep all the time. It makes me feel way more in control of my body and my mood. Instead of being buffeted around by mystery moods and sicknesses which may or may not be hormonal in origin, I can just put how I feel in the app, and go on with my life.
It projects the dates of your next period, too, and uh, probably does a lot of other stuff I haven't figured out yet. You can also apparently use it to calculate fertility (though this is not a feature of the app that I will be reviewing).
I've tried keeping a paper diary and a calendar about this before, because I know hormone-related moods and painful cramps were a big problem in my life and in other peoples' lives, but I never was able to remember which symptoms I was keeping track of in my little notes, and sometimes I forgot to track it, and would have to start all over again, and since I was feeling like crap, I'd get discouraged that I couldn't even keep a period journal write and cry for an extra hour. This app? If I'm feeling like crap, it takes me a minute to open up the application and say so, and then I know I don't have to *remember* it to write it down later, and so I won't worry about it all day when I'm already having PMS and mood swings, and won't get home and forget what I was going to write down, so my fears of being an abnormal freak whose hormones are even affecting her memory, and hence her sense of self as a woman and a capable person in general, is *gone.* It's AWESOME. Recommended.

Ultimate goal: convince my doctor, using historical data, that I really do have some kind of freaky hormonal imbalance that turns me into a saltwater tears factory with no desire to eat; instant, painful, and socially awkward GI problems; and the desire to hide under a blanket with a warm cat for one week out of every four a month, and convince her that it is really ruining my life, so I can figure out what to do from there that's not hormonal birth control (which makes me that person for the whole month straight, and scared my partner and me the whole time I was on it because I would start crying as I was smiling, which I'd not done much before I took the medicine, but restarted my period on a regular basis, and which I've been doing an awful lot since having my period on a regular basis).
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So, there's a lot more vegan food readily available in the last few years. I've decided that when I get a new vegan food I haven't tried before, I should talk about it here.

So....Trader Joe's Fruit Frenzy Bars.

TJ's other fruit popsicles aren't vegan, but these are. I try to buy vegan stuff from TJ's in part because they are really good about labeling what is and isn't vegan, and finding out if something not labelled vegan actually is or is not, and why.

These are largish fruit-flavored popsicles which have three flavors per pop. When I say "fruit flavor," I really mean "these were made with real fruit." For instance, in the top part of the pop, which is blackberry flavored, you can taste the blackberry seeds. The lemon part has actual pieces of pulp in it.

These are really tasty, though a bit sweet for my taste. They have a nice icy texture without being too hard or too soft to really bite into. The top is blackberry, the middle part lemon (though not nearly sour enough for me; it tastes to me more like orange), and the bottom strawberry. Quite good. If I were making Florey Punch, I would get a bunch of these and use them to cool it off; it would probably melt beautifully into the punch bowl.

There's 5 per box.

Rating: Yum! Definitely worth buying. Delicious and full of vitamins, and not too calorie-tastic. If you're a fan of cold desserts and fruit popsicles like me, I would really recommend these especially.

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